Dear Roman

Never Be

Chapter 4: Never Be.

~ Audra ~

I remember the feel of his skin as he held me. It was the first time I agreed to sleep in his bed.

His skin was warm against mine. His scent swallowed me whole not allowing me to smell anything else in his presence. His scent drove me crazy. The smell of chocolate and him.

He loved to smell me. I remember how he'd nuzzle his neck into my skin and I'd laugh when he'd purr.

I remember the way he'd look at me when he thought I didn't notice. I did.

He knew I wasn't werewolf like him, he could tell that much. He knew I was a vampire but he didn't mind just how I didn't mind him being werewolf.

When I first found out who he was, I was hesitant to still talk to him even though he was my mate. But after the pull became too strong I knew I'd have to suck it up and deal with the problems I knew would arise.

Being mated to the Alpha King wasn't as hard as I thought it to be. But then again I wasn't there for much of anything. I wasn't introduced to anyone important like pack members, I wasn't targeted, I wasn't even announced as his mate like we were going to do.

I missed him greatly though. I wondered what he'd be doing this moment. He's bound to have woken up by now, trying to follow my scent which I know he won't find because of the perfume I sprayed on me.

It was a perfume made by witches that hid your true scent.

But I also wonder if he knows I didn't leave by choice.

If it weren't for those rogues and hunters threatening to sell me out to my parents and tell them were I was, I never would've left.

They almost told Roman who I was. How I was the daughter of a King and Queen. Not only that, but daughter of his enemies.

He would've hated me. Most likely been disgusted because of who I was.

Hell, I'm the heir for the Vampire Kingdoms thrown. How would he not hate me for that? We've been destined to hate each other, brought up on it all our lives.

Light pours into the room I'm in and I can finally see again.

I'm pulled out and sat on a chair then look up at my Father.

"I'm going to ask again Audra, who is he?" I turn my head to the side refusing to answer as he glares.

"Fine." He says then stomps up the stairs leaving me out of the dark room I was in before. One of the many flaws my Father has, he's very whiny when he doesn't get his way.

I quickly pull out the note I was working on earlier deciding it's best to finish it now.

Dear Roman,

I'm so sorry for leaving. I know, you're hurt. I know, I broke my promise. But there's things that are going on that I wish I could tell you but I can't. I simply don't have the time now and can't bear the thought of you not-.

I read over what I have then continue writing.

-caring for me. Please trust me when I say I never wanted to leave.

You've become so much to me in the little time we've spent together. No matter what you do, do not look for me. You will not find me and that's the way it has to be right now. I'm sorry I broke my promise that I'd never leave but I will come back. I will always come back.

Yours truly,
Audra.

I look down at the small note in my hand with an aching heart.