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chapter eleven

/ matthew /

arya didn't understand and i sensed that she was nervous when she saw me with her.

let me get things straight, i actually started to hang out with nebula way back when after the grocery thingy, and we grew closer with each other because i found out she was like me, too.

i did the do with nebula last night, but not that fully do thingy. it was just a heated make out session that i was really in need of, to be honest, and i know that i can't do it with arya because cameron will freaking kill the living hell out of me. but instead, i did it with nebula. i'm such a fucking dumbass.

and of course, i had to cover the whole thing with a lie, even if that was the least i wanted to do to arya. i know that she'll hate and curse me when she finds out soon. i'm so screwed.

nebula and i followed arya all the way inside the huge house, or mansion, or whatever the hell others wanted to call it. i felt bad for hurting arya, but i will fix things soon. i promise.

as we entered, empty minded people filled the whole place. they were obviously drunk and high, but i didn't bother. i would do the same thing though, really.

as arabella noticed me, she smiled and walked up to me with arya trailing behind her.

"hi, we've been waiting for you since earlier," arabella said, smiling at me like it was nothing. shit. "but it's okay, at least you're here now."

"sorry, i was at her house," i nudged my head at my right to where nebula was. she just rolled her eyes at us, what the hell. i cleared my throat as i realized i should definitely introduce her to everyone because that was what my instincts were tell me to do.

"i'm arya," she cut the whole thing off, and soon offering her hand to nebula.

"and i'm not interested." nebula snapped, making our eyes widen. "three's a crowd, miss arya. matthew's mine so back the fuck up. he doesn't want low ass class bitch who seeks for his a—"

"he's all yours, though. he's just my friend who does his duty as a friend willingly and amazingly. he's an amazing person and you're really lucky he chose you, i'm proud." arya cut her off and i got really surprised.

was she really defending me after all this?

i feel like a huge jerk.

"woah." was the only word that escaped my mouth.

"yeah, woah," arya said, rolling her eyes at me as she started to walk away.

what have i done.

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/ arya /

i ran all the way out, and stopped by at the backyard with a hammock tied in between two trees. i sat down, and blasted out to justin bieber's new golden album, purpose.

i was currently listening to the song the feeling which made me relaxed.

thinking about the whole thing with matthew and nebula made me want to just run away forever and never go back. not that i was jealous or anything, it was just hard to believe in, in a way that i had no control of what was going to happen next.

stuff like this one was one of the most inevitable things out there. and even though i knew this day would come, i was not prepared on how it will feel like.

"lost in thought again?" i looked up to see gilinsky towering over me. he sat beside me and ran his fingers through my hair, soothing me.

"i just," i was crying and had no idea why. "i thought i could handle myself, jack." i sobbed, as he hugged me, his chin on my head.

"it's okay to cry, it's a normal response to pain," he said, as he didn't let go. "i know how it feels like. seeing the love of your life happy with someone else? hurts like a bitch, right? this is just a small bump, arya. you still have bigger problems with matthew in the future. even if you tell yourself you don't love him, you surely do. i can see the passion and happiness in your eyes every time he makes you smile."

my heart fell down to my stomach as he finished speaking. "thank you, jack." i let go, and wiped my tears away. "but do you really think that i love him? i, i don't know what love means."

"matthew will decipher its meaning for you."

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