I'm Not Mental

Vic's Life Story

Ever since i could remember my mom and dad have always fought, not just arguments, physical fighting. When they were not fighting they acted like any normal couple would, but in the inside
i knew my mom was terrified As a young boy i thought this was a normal family thing, for the father to leave bruises on the mother. I remember the day like it was yesterday. Me and my dad were in the kitchen while my mom was in the living room, that's when i confronted him about it. He looked at me with fear for a split second before it turned into rage. I didn't see anything else until i saw him take a fist and punch me straight in the eye before everything went black.

As i grew up a bit and was in the 5th grade i started to realize that this was nothing but normal. Ever since then almost everyday i have been kicked, punched, and practically tortured by my own family. I lived in straight fear of living in my own house. My mom rarely even noticed i was there, i think she blames me for it because it all started after i was born. So it was like my own family hated me for having me

I did have a brother, Mike. My dad never hit him he loved Mike and it always made me feel really unappreciated. Mike was always there
for me, every time my dad would hit me we would go up and sit on the roof while i cried as he just hugged me and made me feel like everything was alright. He always had problems, i knew it too and it made me feel sad that the only person who i loved was so depressed.

It was the summer before 7th grade when he jumped off the bridge a couple blocks from our house. It broke me in more ways than you could ever imagine. After that i was all alone, the only person who actually ever gave a shit about me was gone and not coming back. It killed me inside and all i wanted to do was go with him.

After a while i started to take the hate out on myself. Self harm became my way out of things. It might seem stupid because i grew up having pain be inflicted upon me so you would wonder why i would just cause more pain for myself. It made me feel like i had some control and that i had power. I never had any friends in middle school or even now in high school, it didn't bother me much i would much rather be alone anyways.

I've always know about depression and i never knew it was this bad. It physically takes over your whole body and leave you numb and it is the worst feeling ever. I understand everything mike was going through and i don't blame him for what he did but i do blame myself for all of this happening in the first place.

haiii everyone its @piercethemadddie and this is the collab story that me and @mollytheweirdo are doing together. Obviously its a kellic fan fiction and next chapter is kellins life story that Molly is writing. This was really short and the actual chapters will be a lot longer but since it is the introduction i decided to keep it short, but i hope you guys enjoyed it and Molly's chapter will be up by tomorrow, byeeee my gorgeous penguins!!!!!