Stained

chapter 6: episodes

Chapter 6: episodes

Alissa's point of view

I didn't want to go home. I didn't want to face her. I didn't know how I let it happen.

I walked home slower than usual today, I felt sick after the episode I had earlier at school. Chase insisted on taking me home but he got an emergency call and he had to rush home. His brother got into some trouble on the (illegal) race track.

I remember how different he seemed this time. He was in the midst of rushing away but stopped and turned to me. He looked at me-for the first time ever-with this broken look, this heartache, this overwhelming pain. I had never, not once in my life ever seen that look on his face and that scared me.

He looked at me his eyes were clouded and he was about to say something, but he didn't. He turned around and sprinted down the street to his car.

Before that I'd woken up in his arms in our spot behind the parking lot. He was smoking (Of course) and he was staring into the distance. My head was rested in his lap and I felt completely ill. I shook my head trying to stop thinking about earlier events of today.
I got to my porch and unlocked my front door and entered the house. I held my breath as I went in and made my way to the staircase. I was getting closer and closer making little to no noise and as my foot was about to hit the first step- "Where do you think you're going." oh fuck off.

"I'm going to my bedroom." I spat as I continued up the stairs. I could feel the heat on my back from the steam coming out of her ears and I noticeably went faster.

"Alissa. I did not raise you to be like this." She scolded. I stopped in my tracks. Last night after finding my mother drunkenly smashing our valuables against the ground I decided not to react. I completely ignored her which left her fuming as soon as she was sober and aware of her surroundings.

"To be like what? What exactly am I doing wrong mother? And just out if interest, You didn't raise me. I raised you." I hissed back.

"Alissa. You better stop this instant, I will not take your attitude on top of this mess! I have enough to deal with." She had the audacity to say.

I stopped and turned to her aggressively "This mess as you describe it, is all your fault. If you had just cleaned up your damn act we wouldn't be in this situation in the first place!" I screamed. The agony was clear in my voice and I wanted nothing more than to just leave.

"Where the hell are you going!?" She yelled as I walked out of the front door.

"Work."

I knew she heard me and with that I started my journey to the diner I worked at. It was 6:45pm and my shift started at 7:00pm. I arrived at the diner and made my way in. I got my apron and went out to the front where everyone else was.

"Hey Alissa." My co-worker Annie greeted me as she prepared a chocolate shake with fries for a customer. I replied with a small grunt and waited for my tables to fill up.

"What's your deal?" she asked clearly noticing my glum mood. She noticed almost everything.

"Nothing, just a long day." I replied just as a bunch of people piled into the store. It was the football team from my school. I sighed for what seemed like 5 hours before making my way over there with a giggle from Annie. She knew I hated this job with every inch of my being. And she knew how much more I hated it when I had to serve the morons that went to my school.

I noticed Ryder and Chase both there among the team. When chase caught my eye he gave me a small nod and a smile telling me that everything was alright. I could still see the faint bit of worry in his eyes. ignoring that, I smiled back in relief of knowing his brother was alright. When I got there the boys were all seated at a booth cramped up together but they didn't seem to care. The table went silent and Ryder, who had his back towards me turned around and looked completely shocked when he saw me standing there. He gave me this...this look. I couldn't quite tell what it meant, he just looked...sorry, sympathetic even. I wondered why for a brief second before remembering that he saw the bitchy cheerleader smack me down along with the rest of the school.