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Pagkatapos nung kanta umiyak na si Joey ...
Like a child ..
Umiiyak na rin kaming lahat...
Si Princess nakayakap lang Kay Joey...
Habang si Joey naman nakangiti habang umiiyak...
Marami pa silang kwentuhan...
And nag assure si Princess pati sila na everyday dadalaw maliban sa iba...
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Binigyan nila kami ng time para magkausap...
Then katahimikan muna..
Then I broke the silence...
"I ....missed you..." Nakaupo ako sa tabi nya at nakahawak ako sa kamay nya while looking at her...
"Let's forget what happen three years ago...I want to start -"
"Brad.... Don't you know my condition right now. .....I am si-"
" So? What now?? I know you are...but joey I love you.... I want to spend my life with you....no matter what...."
"You don't understand-"
"I do! I love you....you told us before that love is acceptance.... I accept all the circumstances in life just to be with you.... And for me Love is unexplainable.... I can't explain ."
I bow my head....para itago ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon...
Kung pwede lang sana ...
Ako na lang ang nakahiga....
Instead of her.....
Ako na lang sana ang nahihirapan ...
Instead of her....
Ako na lang sana ang nagche-chemo...
Instead of her.....
If I could just take away her illness right now....
If I could just ease the pain inside her now....
If I could just give her my life right now....
But I can't.....
Ano bang gagawin ko para mawala ang sakit na nararamdaman nya??
What would I do??
Now I'm just crying.....
Crying because I can't help her to ease the pain....
Crying because I can't stand knowing that she will die...
Sana gumaling sya....
"Brad.... Thank you...." She said so I look at her....
She's smiling....
"Kasi di ka sumusuko.....but now ...you need to stop it.....I don't want you to get hurt....." I shook my head to tell that I don't want to stop this....
"Brad....sabi ng doctor I have less than a year to live....and I don't want to be selfish....ayokong mahalin mo ako....knowing that I'm going to die later on...mahihi-"
I hugged her to stop her from her words....
She will die soon?
Who are they to say that??
Wait..
..
Doctor??
My sister ..... Siguro matutulungan nya si Joey...
I know my sister .....
She will not give up.....
I need to talk to her....
"Joey ...please don't say that.....I know gagaling ka pa...stop talking none sense.....and I won't stop OK..
I will stay by your side no matter what.....you're strong Joey.....di ba lagi mo pa akong sinisigawan..."
I'm still hugging her....
And I'm crying at her shoulder...
I don't want to let go...
And I feel her arms ....
She's also hugging me....
And crying at the same time.....
"I know God has a purpose ..... And what ever His decision I will I accept it..."
God???
Purpose???
Ano naman??
I asked Him before to save my dad..
But what happen??
What's His purpose then??
Pero si Joey is full of hope Kay God....
God please.....
I'm sorry for what I have treated you...
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I'm sorry for not trusting you....
I'm sorry for what I have in mind about you.....
I know I don't have the right to asked this but please God.....
I'm begging you again for your....
Miracles...
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