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Men ..! Ilang months na rin ang nakalipas nung graduation namin...
Masaya naman ang first experience sa college...
Business Administration ang kinuha ko for the sake of our company...
Sa totoo lang I want to be an engineer...
But I know na ako lang ang mamamahala sa kompanya namin...
When my dad died nung 8 years old ako si mama na ang Naging CEO ng kompanya namin ..
Although naghiwalay sila noon sa di malamang dahilan I always loved my dad... Bago sila maghiwalay ni Mom nung 5 years old ako I always go to dad's house then alternate sila Kay mom...
Yeah... medyo bata pa ako nung maghiwalay sila but I can still recall Dad's reaction...
He's always feel sorry for us, kami ni ate, kasi Naghiwalay sila ni mom .. He's not telling what's the reason behind their separation but I can feel his pain...
Hindi ko rin maintindihan noon dahil bata pa ako ..
Then when I was 8 my dad got into an accident..
Then I can hear mom .... Crying for Pete's sake... She can't hide that she still love dad ...
I can see her begging to the doctor... Tears rolling down her cheeks..
And I find myself hugging my sister who is also crying...
She's 6 years older than me...
And I am also crying in that moment .. I cat stop my tears falling down as I watched mom beg for the Doctor to save my Dad's life...
I heard the Doc says that only God can decide on the condition of my dad...
He also told my mom that the only hope for Dad's safety is Miracle ONLY...
I know God is the only one who can make miracles happen...
Upon hearing it I pulled my sister's hand and search for the chapel..
I found myself kneeling down to the altar ....
I prayed for my dad's condition and asked HIM to do Miracles in Dad's life...
And my sister watched me prayed ... I asked her also to bend her knees and pray for miracles to happen but she's not responding ...she's Just crying like there's no tomorrow...
But me I begged God for miracle...
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Nagtagal kami sa chapel ng Dalawang oras just to Pray...
I believed in that time that God will hear my Prayer !
Pero nang bamalik kami sa room ni Daddy ...
My heart is beating so fast ...
I think I can't breath....
I was frozed in the door as I look at my father ....
A clothe cover his entire body...
My mom was crying in the corner as she look at the dead body of my father...
My grandparents were hugging my dad... Crying...
Mourning....
I thought Miracle do happen if we asked HIM ...
I was too Naive to believed that God really care to our sorrows...
To our problems ...
I thought God can give my dad a second life...
But I was wrong....
HE didn't answer my prayer...
I begged Him...
But nothing happen...
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When my father died I didn't talk for how many months ...
I love my dad so hard...
....
I believed God's existence but I don't trust HIS power...
He doesn't care at all...
I didn't rebel just as the other do...
I didn't ruin my life just because my father died..
I choose to live my life in normal way..
I choose to be a happy person just to ease the pain...
Some person may tell that I'm a strong person..
Yeah ! I am... That's why I don't need God in my life...
I don't need to trust Him in my life..
I live in the way I want to be ...
Happy...
Nothing to worry.....
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When my dad died... Si mom naging MOMster!
As what I've said she's a dictator..
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Until now I don't know kung bakit naghiwalay sina mom and Dad...
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My sister is a doctor...
Siya lang naman ang isa sa mga kilalang doctor sa Pilipinas ..
She's good you know...
But she's married to a Business Man ... Actually arranged marriage lang...
Of course si mama ang may gawa...
My sister can't fight back to her rights...
Mapilit kasi si Mom..
My sister is in loved to her best friend which is a Doctor also...
But mom debarred their relationship..
I know how my sister was really hurt ...
But what can she do.??
Mom is just so stubborn..
So my sister didn't have a happy life at all...
I don't want that to happen..
That's why I am really thankful...
Macey is the woman I like and at the same time Mom is on her side ...
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Daming... Nagawang kalukuhan sa buhay ko...
But to be honest I don't really forget about Joey until now na mag iisang taon na...
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My relationship to Macey went good....
Hindi ko alam kung bakit nasanay ako na siya lang kasama ko...
I mean.....in my condition.??
Siguro I'm one of the guy who spend time with some random girls....
Lalo na ngayon ......
Nasa college na ako...
Maraming girls na nagkakandarapa sakin :D hahahaha Yeah that's right..
Minsan nga nakikipag sagutan si Macey na dati naman Hindi. .
Si Macey pala parang may pibagbago na sya...
Naging mainitin ang ulo...
Very possessive....
Demanding pa....
Noon naman Hindi..
Mabait nga sya nun eh...
But now I think I don't know her already...
Pero kami pa rin...
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