100 Poems For The Soul

Jetsam

  I lie here a swollen mound of jetsam, the blankets washing over me like breakers
I keep finding myself on shores I never left.
Looking up at faraway stars I remember
When I thought I was strong enough to burn that bright.
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Now messages arrive at all hours of the night,
Boys with smart mouths and smiles and my number
It just scared me a little when for the first time the vodka didn't make everything okay.
I tease, walk around in tight jeans and take heart after heart but it doesn't fill up my empty.
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I thought I'd be alright to float a while
But no, you made me feel what you wouldn't say and
It wasn't what my demons would have me believe,
Now you're just a backslide, and I pay the price because my skin doesn't fit the way it should.
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Maybe if I can fix myself
I'll find a way to drift on back to you (again)
When the tides change, when the mirror stops being an ocean to cross
I'll remake my bones and set sail.