(ASHLEY 'S VIEW)
well today is December seventeenth and yes its my birthday, I'm now twenty three and since today is my birthday Carly is taking me out of town for the night and yes we are skipping school tomorrow morning. Do I want to go? No. Do I have a choice? No. but I have been a crapy friend since the split so I need to make that up so that's why I'm going without complaining. I just wish I knew where we were going, all she said was dress nice and that I wouldn't regret it. ever since me and Harry have been over I haven't been myself, I miss him. I know! I know! I ended everything I know this! but its harder then I thought. I pull up a note on my computer with words of a song that I have been trying to write for days. I sit and stare at the words "I wish I could go back and change things but I cant, so here I am saying sorry" then after about a week everything hit me and I started writing and writing until the song was complete. I quickly printed the words just when Carly yelled. Ashley lets go! so I turned everything off, followed Carly to the van (that I have no clue how she got it) and we headed out.
I saw your song that you wrote Ashley, its beautiful!... thanks but how did you see it?...... when I grabbed my purse, you know remember I went back in for it?.........yea. I remember. I said with a fake smile. Ashley what's wrong? I know you miss harry I know this, but I promise everything will get better after tonight.
how does she possibility know that everything will be alright after tonight? it won't! unless she knows something I don't? after about twenty minutes Carly finally told me that we were going to Texas and how Karalyn is going to meet us there, I smiled. we talked and sang to the radio I was finally starting to be myself until I hear:
Your hand fits in mine
Like it’s made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I’m joining up the dots
With the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me
I froze then I mumbled little things. Ashley are you ok?..yea I'm ok! I said forcing a smile cause I wasn't ok that's the song harry sung to me at night after I would be crying... Ashley want me to change it?......no I'm ok... this was true until I heard:
I know you’ve never loved the sound of your
voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But you’re perfect to me
Harry's beautiful voice made me became choked up I was on the verge of tears until I heard harry line:
And I’m in love with you
And all these little things
I broke down and cried, I miss hearing him tell me he loves me, I just sat and whispered I love you too harry and I wonder if you still love me. next thing I hear is a announcement from the radio DJ saying something about a one direction surprise contest in Texas tonight.. Texas NO anywhere but there not TEXAS not TONIGHT. that's where I'm going! all these thoughts running though my head. I just hope that this isn't the surprise that the girls had for me. could it? I would be able to see harry one last time without him seeing me. Am I ready though? I doubt it. I look towards Carly and she had this unusual expression on her face like if I figured something out that she didn't want me to know. Oh no! could it be? are we going to that concert? shut up Ashley your just paranoid Carly and Karalyn wouldn't do that to you, they know you just split with harry. but they also know that I still love him.
