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repeat after me

Ana POV

"ok. Everyone repeat after me. Yo estoy en clase."

"Yo estoy en clase" - everyone repeated in sync but me and Tai just mouth the words out of bad habit. we started doing that ever since we decided that there was no need at the beginning of the year after we realized our voices weren't even noticeable within the crowd of students repeating what we were always told to.

It's been the second day that I have come back to school but this time I am not as hopeful and light hearted about coming back as I was yesterday. It is probably the dream I had that is making me feel like I have a weight in my chest and warning sign in my head but somehow I doubt that's it either.

From under the desk I pull out my phone and check all of my social media again, slightly tilting the screen away and dimming the light as I did just to make sure Tai doesn't look over and see I'm kind of stalking our status.

I try to keep my head up as if i am actually paying attention to the foreign words that are coming out of my teachers mouth as i open up the apps on my phone skillfully.

Twitter.... Good

Instagram...good

Kakao..... not blocked

Facebook....... Wait.

I refresh the page and look for her again. Nothing. Nothing is coming up.

My heart starts picking up the pace and I feel all of the blood escape my face.

"okay class now repeat after me, ella, el, somos, nosotros,  ustedes"

i mouth the words and restart my phone.

"good good, now i am going to pass out this sheet of paper for you all to practice this dialogue with your partners"

once again i open up everything and the result is still the same.

i search everywhere but nothing comes up,Its like she has disappeared off the face of the earth.

I place my phone back into my back pocket with shaky hands while I try to control the sudden twisting but falling feeling in my chest and stomach.

I intertwine my fingers together tightly inside my desk and slowly look over to tai as the teacher gives us our papers to practice.

tai takes her copy, lays it on her desk, and stares at it.

i wait a few seconds to see if she would acknowledge me, but she stays in the same position.

i nod at myself in an " of course" kind of manner and look hard at my own copy.

slowly but surely it starts to go out of focus. fuck i cant be serious? am i really going to cry?

"ok everyone. We'll  leave it there and be prepared to have your dialogue ready for next class. Buenas tardes"

"Class!" The class president says loudly and stands up. The rest of the class follows the same and says "gracias professora". I didn't even bother to get up and gladly the teacher didn't see because it would've been an easy ticket to the dean's office.

once the teacher leaves everyone starts making their way to lunch or starts fixing their supplies for their next class,but I crossed my shaky hands across my chest and stared blankly at the board which once again gradually goes in and out of focus ,feeling empty.

"Hey Tai!" I heard someone call out from ahead of us.

1 and 1 made 2 and i recognized the voice almost instantly.

a fire burn entered the pit of my stomach.

i swear if she answers.

"Oh hey Gabe" I heard Tai answer happily.

Are you fucking serious. is she fucking kidding me? in front of my face to?

"So how was yo-"

"What the hell did I do to you?" I suddenly blurted out and sharply turned my head towards Tai as i could feel my tears on the edge of spilling out of disappointment and anger.

in my peripheral vision i can clearly see some people become startled and even a few scurry out.

"Ana.." Tai said with a hurt look on her face. I could feel my face was starting to heat up. i hope i didn't hurt her feelings just now, i have never been so angry before.

"Ana. Please don't yell at Tai that way" Gabe said and I felt like that was the last straw.

What in the world is going on here? Could they be.....? No. i mean its hardly been two weeks so.

"whats going on here?huh? Why is he suddenly worried for you?"I growl at Tai again. And as I see him put his hand on her shoulder, I suddenly saw red as i turned to death glare the bitch, one tear slipped out but i payed no mind to it.

I could feel my face ease up when i saw the smirk on his face. Tai's face crumpled up almost immediately when she saw the tear. 

She knows perfectly that this face means I am one penny short from raising hell from the center of the earth any second now.

I take one step closer to him and then look him inches away from the face.

"Fuck off." I growl.

"No. I won't. Cuz when u left her shattered after what you caused, I was there to help pick the pieces up and we were doing perfectly fine without you. She might look composed but she's in a fragile state, so I suggest. You. Fuck. Off" Gabe said in a cool voice.

I clenched my fist. The slick bastard took advantage of the situation.

a smaller but colder hand grabbed my fist. my heart skipped a beat.

I could feel myself calm down and my entire body slowly relax as I looked down at my hand slowly honestly not believing what i'm feeling.

I already knew whose it was even before i saw the way her small hand and painted nails were wrapped around my fist which were usually hot pink and one other choice finger a different color just out of the courtesy of style.

I looked up at her face slowly feeling tears again and my eyes met hers.

Worry and obvious love was shining deep in them.