Loyalty Is Everything

Dear Mama

"Maaan! Fuck this shit!! I'm tired of going through this everyday" I yelled to myself. My mama kept me at home with the kids again . Its not even about the fact that I gotta watch em hell, they practically mine anyways. But its just the fact that she don't give a fuck if i just got off work, got plans or whatever. When she ready to go its lights out

I mean to be honest i aint really got to many friends, I fuck with a couple bitches but they more like my sisters. My a1's since day ones. We kick it , when I aint at work, or got the kids. They don't be liking to come over cause my sisters niece & nephew. Plus my mom a bitch. So i guess this Friday is another boring ass friday.

As i'm sitting on the toilet i hear my phone ringing, "Tinkkkk!" i yelled for my niece. Knowing she would be the only one to hear me, she stay up under me. "Yesss Tete??" "Bring me my phone rat!" Kay she yelled in her little squeaky voice. She brought it to me & it was a missed facetime call from her mama.

I handeled my business in the bathroom & quickly called her back "hey chick what you doing?" I said into the phone. "Nothing bitch she yelled im on my way coming from Chicago. Ima spend the night with the kids.. Wait is mama there?" She asked. "Uhuh, she not gone be back till whenever, you know its the first!" I told her. " Shit I forgot... Good atleast i aint gotta hear her mouth. I'll be there in 3 hours" she said CLICKKKK .

I hated when she did that shit, but i could careless cause she finna take over & im finna go out! I quickly called my cousin Kat. She picked up on the second ring. "BABYYYY WASSSUPPPP, she yelled into the phone. I MISS YOUUUU." I said you so gay bitch, as I laughed out loud.

"But where you at hoe, Nisha on the way & she should be here by 7 !" I told her. I got a little bit of money left after paying the rent, im tryna get high & maybe a buzz. "Wassup hoe?" I asked "Maaan, Auntie Shay couldnt pay the rent again huh?"

"Naezya you gone get enough of giving up all those checks to pay the rent & looking after those kids." She said calling me by my first name, telling me seriously. But I done told her over & over my mama got a habit & ill be damned if I let my family suffer from her choices.

"Kat just stopm You already know loyalty over anything & nothing over my family". I said dang near in tears. "Cousin I'm sorry I know I know, but it just aint fair. She gets 4 checks! Its not fair that you gotta give up all your shit, but I understand & I'll drop it but something gotta give.

KAT
I hate that shit my cousin gotta go through. She done had to give up high school, hair school, everything! All she do is work. Im proud of her tho. "Thats my bitch" I said out loud to myself. I turned on the shower, turned on my vaporizer & dropped a whole dub of that OG in there. She was stressing I was stressing. Finna get high. I sat in the tub until letting the steam & the machine take me on a whole nother level.

45 minute later i stepped out the shower when my doorbell rang. My moms was gone, she was always working. I wonder who it was.. I look through the peep & its my big brother KC & his sexy ass friend Shy. I opened the door & went back up stairs to my room.

I cant believe Shy would come up in my shit & not speak. Wtf the nerve of mfs. I mean we not an item or nun. But I thought after a taste of this kitty we could atleast be friends. Guess I was wrong!

As i'm getting dress I feel a pair of hands on my bare ass & I immediately turn around. "Bitch stop playing with me !" I said flexing like I wasnt just thinking about her sexy ass . Yupp I said it. I'ma dyke. I'm known in the gay community, why wouldn't I be? I'm the prettiest & thickest Femme in the App, shit the baddest, the flyest everything. Haha, bet that fucked up ya world.

"Fuck you in my room for." I asked her. "Calm all that down ma, my phone got stolen." If you think I'm lying check out the bag. She said as she passed me the bag. It had 2 brand new iphone 6 plus! "Oh okay, you got a new phone. Thats wassup" I said casually.

"Ma one for you she said. I cant have my baby with a 5s & be walking around with the 6 plus"
She said. "Oh? Yo baby" I asked her. She said "mhm" & gave me a kiss, as she took me down i began to think damn after 5 long years of crushing I finally got her. Yesssss i moaned as she got in between my thighs.

It's about time me & her made shit official. I was tired of this every now & then shit.

SHAY

I didn't eat, I didnt sleep. Didn't see my kids or nothing. Shit only thing I did was get high. Today is the First & I was happy. I got my welfare nshit. Finally a little cash in my pocket. I was gone have a blessed weekend. Mmhmm.

"Wanna buy some stamps?" I asked the lady in the line at the Cubs on Broadway. She turned around so quick as if she wanted em. But once she saw how bad I looked she quickly turned around. She probably already knew that I was taking from my kids to by drugs. Stupid assumin bitch .

"My kids are good & fine & fed. My husband just restocked our whole pantry & fridge. We dont need em this month" I frantically told the woman. She quickly looked at my empty ring finger. She shook her head & took off. "Fuck you bitch"

Once I finally sold the stamps & cashes my welfare checks. I was heading up to the new projects. Hoping to bump into an old friend & get a quick fix for a nice price. I raked up the back of my matted hair as best as I could. It didnt do much, so I just gave up.