Twists of Fate (boyxboy)

Chapter 12

Kaleb

I didn't know what a connection was truly like until that night. Since meeting him, I knew Ricky was something important to me, but I didn't realize just how important until we made love. It felt as though we shared every memory of both our lives in that moment.

Ultimately, it opened my mind. I had spent so much time with Lucas, and yet, I knew that it was only a substitute for the inability to have intimacy with Ricky. I hadn't realized it before, but the clarity that pierced my mind at that moment allowed me to.

"I need to fix things, Ricky. I've got so much of a mess on my hands that I don't know what to do. I can't drag you into it just yet." I could feel the pain in my own voice. Who was I to push him away again after what we had just done? But I couldn't hurt him, and stringing him along until everything was cleared would only bring him discomfort.

"I understand, Kaleb. You don't have to worry about me. I'm a big boy. I might be irrational at times, but... if it's for you, I'll do anything." He smiled softly, and I could see a tinge of pain behind his eyes, but he still exhibited happiness beyond that.

"How did I ever get this chance? This doesn't feel like reality. It doesn't feel like it should be happening." My words were nothing but honest. I felt like I was dreaming. Like the sense of reality I had always known didn't exist.

My phone started blaring, and Chasing Cars filled the room, and the hardest reality hit me. His expression tightened. "I need to take this, Ricky."

He nodded. "Yeah. I know. Go ahead."

I kissed him gently and then answered the call. "Hey, Lucas. How are you?"

"I'll be honest, Kaleb. I'm pissed. What's going on with you?" The tone in his voice had a large degree of hostility.

"I'm going to be in my room shortly. If you want to talk, you can meet me there. I'll answer any questions you have, alright?"

"Fine." He ended the call.

I glanced at my phone momentarily, surprised.

"So?" I almost didn't notice Ricky behind me for a moment. My entire focus had shifted to my phone.

"I need to go, Ricky. I've got to shower and be ready when he gets there. I'll call you when it's over. Alright?"

He nodded. "I love you." His lips came to mine and they meshed together. At the break, he didn't pull back, but rested his forehead against mine. "I'm not going to lie, I'm scared... I know it's stupid, but still."

I kissed his forehead. "Don't worry, Ricky. I'm not leaving you. Never again." I glanced at my clothes and started to slip them on, but stopped. "I'll leave those here for now. I'm just going to shower and then head to my dorm. I'll be back."

I knew his room like the back of my hand and grabbed a towel from his closet before slipping out of his room. As I walked to the showers, I couldn't help but think about James. I had been best friends with him before ever meeting Ricky. He always told me that he was sure we'd get along. If only he knew then just how well we got along.

When I reached the shower room, I noticed it was unusually quiet for a late night. I tried to remember what day it was, and so much had happened in the last couple days, that I couldn't recall.

The warmth of the shower's jets seemed like pure pleasure to my skin. I felt the dry sweat caked to my skin washing away under just the water. I lathered my body with soap and relished in the sensation of my body's impurities being removed.

I closed my eyes and relaxed under the warmth for a few minutes before I felt it cooling. It was then I knew to get out. Minutes later, I walked into my bedroom. Once again, Shawn was missing, which surprised me. It seemed to be a recurring thing as of late.