Hope

Chapter 8

 

I felt like I couldn't breathe. How could this happen? This whole time I believed that Harry was not  killer, all the things I said to defend in front the people that accused him of murdering another person life. I had lied to them. I started to feel a ball of anger spreading, I couldn't control my breathing, it went to a certain point where I was panting.

"Ads, Please just let explain." he said with a heartbreaking tone. The sound of his voice calmed me down a little bit, but it didn't change the anger that I felt towards him. How could he do this to me, But the thing is that I actually believed in him when this all started. I used to trust him with my life, now i don't even know if the explanation was going to be the truth. Why did this happen?

"NO," I said back to him. "I don't want to hear another word, How can I even trust if what you are saying right now is true? For God sake, Harry I trusted you! How could you do this to me?" Only after did I notice that my voice got louder and I technically yelled and at him.

Harry just looked at the floor letting his brown curls cover his face, I now felt really bad. I didn't mean too snap at him like that. I need to give him a chance, a chance to explain himself.

"Harry, I'm so--" I was cut off by him.

"Addie, you every right to mad at me. I know that I lost your trust , but I had a reason to not tell you."

"Harry what happened?" I asked calmer than before. Harry didn't answer. "Harry?"

He slowly looked up, as soon as I made eye contact with him I saw that he was trying to hold back tears. His eyes started to look red and puffy, like a lost dog. It hurts me way too much to see him like this.

"I was coming back home from a club, and I was drunk, mindless and stupid. I was mugged by a gang of  middle aged men. If I would've known how dangerous these people would be, I wouldn't have fought them. But being me I followed them, they lead me straight to to an alley. The group was furious that I followed them, the next thing I know was that I was laying on the ground, not remembering of what just happened. But there was a witness, the person saw everything that happened. The person had all the evidence against me. She said that she saw me take the gun from his pocket and shot the leader with it. Ever since then I have been getting bits of my memory."

I didn't know how to respond, what could I say? He was a killer, but he was also my best friend. i looked up at his eyes, his beautiful eyes. I remember that I used to call them green emeralds. He used to hate it when I described  his  eyes. But now they were just dark, there is no way now to describe them. He looked like he didn't have much life left inside of him. I was about to say something until I was cut off by him. 

"You don't have to say anything, I know you must be scared of me now, that was the reaction my mum gave me." He looked down again, but this time I saw a tear slowly roll down his cheek. I can't be mad at him right now, it is almost impossible. 

I stand up and as I did his head quickly turned to me. I know the rules here are when you are visiting you are not allowed to have any contact with the person, but right now I didn't care. I went closer to him and gave him a bear hug. I missed this, hugging Harry is like feeling that you will always be safe. I began to cry, but his time I wasn't embarrassed. I just let myself go all out, the cry started to die down. The security took a while till they noticed that I was hugging him, but when they found out they came in. 

"Ma'am, I your thirty minutes are up. You should leave." He said In a deep scruffy voice.

I was going to let go of harry but he just held me closer, I decided to not move. I was savoring the last last moment I had with him. 

Harry put his mouth next to my ear and said something into it, " Addison Caroline, I will always love you. And remember, never. Lose. Hope." 

And with that he pulled away and left the room, leaving me with the leftover heat that radiated from his body to mine. I couldn't move, but the security forces me too. I was lead to the exit and the man told me that I could leave now. I slowly paced to the car as I thought about everything that just happened. 

Then it hit me as I got into the car, I'll never be able to see him again. This has been the last I'll ever be able to see him.