Hello Kitty, Will You Be My Outlaw? (BVB fanfic)

Lost it all

Long chapter I promise!!

Ashley's Pov:

As I walked into their back by the bunks I saw Andy and Victoria or Carolyn laughing together as he pointed at pictures and things in her bunk.

"In this one Victoria laughed so hard she ended up snorting like a pig." He said chuckling at a picture of Victoria and I by a pool where we had gotten pushed in together right after.

"She sounds fun" she said. Why is  he trying to steer her away from the fact that she is Victoria?

"She is" he said and looked up "you are too" he said before I walked right past them and brushed by Andy trying to give him the sign of "back the fuck off my girl"

He chuckled and looked down at her "I'm gonna you to leave you to sleep. Goodnight Carolyn" he said and kissed her cheek.

I felt my blood boil and saw him leave before Victoria got up "wait ashes!" She said and I turned to look at her not even realizing she had seen me pass.

"Yes, Victoria?" I asked and she gave me a small pout. "You must really like that Victoria girl because you can't seem to call me by my name." She said

I sighed "I'm sorry, Carolyn. I miss her and I'm the reason she's gone. I just wish I had gotten to tell her before she disappeared."

"Tell her what?" She asked looking at me with the same starry eyed gaze I had seen as she had seen the horses or when she had heard about taking care of the children.

"Tell her how much I love her" I said before I turned and walked away not able to stand the fact that she couldn't remember.

This is all my fault.

All mine

Carolyn's Pov:

Wait a minute

If he loves Victoria, and he thinks I'm Victoria, doesn't that mean he loves.... Me?

"Wait Ashely!" I said trying to go after him but I tripped on my boot. I fell face first before watching him walk off the bus shutting me out.

Ashley's Pov:

I walked off the bus and putted out by motorcycle. I couldn't sit here and watch what I've done. It's driving me insane!

I quickly revved the engine and started towards the nearest Home Depot.

Before I knew what I was doing I had bought what I needed and put it on the back of the bike.

I started heading towards the woods.

I parked by bike and chained it down before heading to what I thought was the tallest tree. I had the rope I'd bought wrapped around my shoulder before I started climbing.

I smiled and straddled the thick branch. I pulled out my pocket knife and smiled at the memory of Victoria and I carbon our names into the tree and my grandparents house.

Now the purpose wasn't quite the same.

I carved my message into the wood and looked around as I felt a few cold specks land on me.

I looked up to see snow starting to fall.

"Oh that's right it's Christmas Eve " I said outloud to myself.

I tied the rope to the tree and made a small necklace at the other end. I gave a small chuckle that I now realize would only come from a madman.

I put on my new necklace and took a second to admire how well it fit.

I looked down "what am I doing up here. I should be on the ground"

"Merry Christmas everyone" I said before feeling the tears start to fall and as they fell I fell with them feeling my new necklace snag me up and try to pull me up into the tree again.

I choked and grabbed at the noose trying to loosen it. 'What am I doing?! I can fix this I can't die yet!!'

"Too late for that son" I heard and looked over to see the two figures I only remember form pictures I've seen.

"Mom? Dad?" I tried to say but all that came out were chokes and cries.

"You can come with us now Ashley. It's ok. They don't need you there anymore" my mother said holding my dads hand.

Her voice was like silk. A way a mothers should sound.

Dad smiled at me "they will be ok without you Ashley just let go" he said with the voice I had been begging for as a growing child without parents would.

I felt my hands loosen and the pain started easing as my vision faded. "Go to sleep baby" they said at the same time as my eyes closed.

I heard a snap and voices before everything went into a black obis of nothing.