Hello Kitty, Will You Be My Outlaw? (BVB fanfic)

In The End

Carolyn's Pov:

"Ashley no!" I screamed as I saw Jinxx cut the rope.

I had taken the boot off and realized I could walk or run with minimal pain. I had been begging to go find Ashley because the way he had run out worried me.

"Ashley!" I screamed running to him and collapsing next to him. "Wake up Ashley wake up!" I screamed shaking his arms.

I pulled the noose off his neck gently and whimpered softly as I saw the bruises.

"Ashes please!" I begged "don't leave me like this I'm sorry! Please come back!" I said feeling his wrist for a pulse and putting a finger under his nose to see if he was breathing.

Neither of those were in my favor.

A memory came back to me of me freezing cold in the snow looking up at Ashley likeI'm  a demon coming to rip me out of a heaven I didn't deserve. No a heaven I didn't want. I didn't want to be without Ashley.

Wait what am I thinking? That's never happened to me! I only met him a few days ago right?

"V-Victoria don't scare me l-like that again" he said shivering as he picked me up.

That name... That's my name. That was the name he called me by and it was the only one I wanted. He wasn't in these Carolyn memories. Those memories aren't real!

That was the night we had our first kiss even if it wasn't one of passion or love like our usual ones were it was one that started it.

Our first kiss was in the snow.

It's only right that our last on be here too.

"Carolyn get up we need to get the body away from here" Andy said putting a hand on my shoulder.

This scumbag, this asshole, this selfish prick has been stealing me from Ashley. And he's not going to even try and save him!

"No don't call me that! And leave me here with him for a few minutes call an ambulance and tell them you have had a partner suicide" I said starting to stand.

I turned and saw the guys looking at me in shock. "Car- Victoria I can't sit here and let you kill your self right after one of my best friends did." Jinxx said trying to grab my wrist and pull me away.

I felt my vision start to blur a bit from the tears. "Victoria died in a car crash with the man she loved. That was where it ended for me and what has been happening now is like adding zeros past a decimal point. It's pointless and a waist of time. I'm with the man I love. And I want to stay with him... Forever" I said and as I looked up again I saw the guys giving each other looks not knowing what to do.

Jake was the first to come to his senses. He put a hand on jinxx's shoulder and nodded. They both started to head out and I saw cc start dialing the phone for an ambulance with tears in his eyes. Andy just stared at me.

"You can watch if you want but you aren't stopping me" I said and he looked into my eyes. "Like hell i'm not" he said before grabbing my arms and pushing me against a tree.

"I loved you from the moment I heard you sing with me. I brought you back to the bus because I liked you! You chose the wrong guy and you want me to let you throw your life away for someone who hurt you so much you cut and almost died twice?" He said his face so close to mine that I could smell the peanut butter on his breath.

"What would you rather Andy? Me dead in a grave and happy with the man I love? Or stuck in bed with you while I cry my eyes out every night begging for Ashley?" I asked making him flinch.

"Y-you could learn to love me..." Andy said and I shook my head "give it up Andy I'm not yours and I won't ever be yours" I said before gaining my strength and pushing him off me.

He fell to the ground and sat frozen in shock. I went over to the message I saw carved in a tree.

'Ashley Purdy, a man in love'

It said and I realized he had ment that to be like a gravestone.

I grabbed the knife that Jinxx had dropped and started fixing the carving.

'Victoria and Ashely Purdy, a man in love and the girl whom loved him back'

I looked back to see Andy had disappeared. I knew he wouldn't watch me do this.

I walked over to Ashley and kneeled next to him.

I hummed softly to 'in the end' as I pulled out my pain medication from my jacket pocket and another bottle that I didn't realize was there before.

I took them both out and realized the second one had a small razor in it as long as a sanitation wipe.

I forgot I had gotten a new one after Ashley had flushed my other one.

I pulled out the pills and slowly started taking them one by one. I had no drink so the process would be slower but this was what I had to do.

After finishing the bottle of 45 I pulled out the blade and started making deep cuts. The pills had made my body go numb so I barely felt it.

That would make this easier.

I made deep cuts and when I looked down at all my handiwork I realized I had carved a word without meaning to.

"OUTLAW"

I smiled slightly and laid next to Ashley kissing the tattoo of hello kitty on his arm.

I spoke softly as I realized these were my last words to him.

"Hello kitty..." I stroked his hair softly "... Will you be my outlaw?" I asked as my eyes shut and I let the darkness accept me