Don't Leave Me - A Nathaniel Buzolic Story - Second Book ✔

Part One

Part One

“I love you, you know that right?” he said, I nodded. It wasn’t until I had my hair tied up I heard him say, “Jaz, will you marry me?”

I froze, I lent on the sink looking at him, I couldn’t control what I was about to say next, “I aborted our baby” I said, why did I say that? Nate just looked at me blankly, “You what?” he said standing up straight. “I had a termination, I’m sorry” I said walking over to him, “You know how much I want to be a Father and how I want them with you” Nate said moving away from me. “I wasn’t sure if you were its Father” I sighed walking in the opposite direction; I ran my hands through my hair and sighed. “What? Who else would it…? Steven, you fucked Steven?” Nate shouted, “It was the night you got drunk and tried to punch me!” I shouted, “We were broken up then so technically I didn’t cheat” I said. Nate didn’t say anything and it broke my heart when he churned things over, “Nate, I didn’t want the kid on the chance it was Steven’s, I didn’t want your heart to be broken knowing it was Steven’s and not yours, ours” I said sitting on the bathmat. I played with it and felt Nate leave me alone. I couldn’t help but cry again and I wasn’t quite about it either. “Jaz don’t cry” I heard Nate say as he sat next to me, “You hate me, I can’t help it” I sobbed as I felt him rub my back gently, “I love you, I don’t hate you, but I wish you told me and I would of understood, even though there was a 50/50 chance of me not being the baby’s Father, I would of raised it like it was mine” he said, “But I want your babies, not Steven’s” I said wiping my eyes and not caring about my eyeliner. “You want to have kids with me?” Nate said, he sounded shocked. I nodded, “Yeah, because you’re the only guy I’ve ever truly loved, you haven’t used me as a punching bag, you haven’t driven me off a bridge and tried to kill me and you haven’t cheated on me” I sniffed. “But I have yelled at you” he said, “Not every relationship is perfect Nate” I said as Nate rubbed his hand in a circler motion on my back. “I know that but I’m not exactly boyfriend of the year am I?” he said “Can you ever forgive me? I didn’t mean to do it without consulting you, but I…” “I can forgive you, but it’ll take me a while” Nate said, I slumped my shoulders and started to cry again. “No don’t start crying again” Nate said pulling me into a hug, I tried to push him off me but it didn’t work. “I’m going to bed” I said wriggling out of his embrace. I stood up and walked over to the mirror and started to take my make up off. “I’ll erm, I’ll sleep on the sofa under the window; you can have the bed” Nate said as he sat on the side of the bath. I put my make up removal wipe in the bin and looked at him, “No I’ll sleep on the sofa and you can have the bed, I have a feeling I’m not going to sleep anyway” I said putting toothpaste on my toothbrush. Nate just looked at me and said nothing. The silent treatment, fun!

I lay on the sofa under the window and just looked out at the night sky; I put my hands on my stomach and remembered there was nothing there. I sighed and looked over at Nate in the bed, he was sound asleep by the sound of his breathing but I couldn’t help but wonder if he even wanted me after everything. He was facing away from me so I couldn’t see his face, those gorgeous eyes, those lips; I sighed and put the pillow I was lying on over my face and kicked my legs. Why was I such an idiot? The guy I was madly in love with was giving me the silent treatment and hated me for the fact I aborted what could have been his baby. I sat up and started to get dressed; I looked around the room for any hope of seeing a pen and paper. I wasn’t going to leave him high and dry again. I found a notepad and a pencil on the bedside table. I scribbled a note for him;

‘Nate,

Since it’s clear we need a time out I’m going up to visit my parents in Scotland, since I’m in the UK anyway, I might as well, I’ll call you in a few days but remember I never stopped loving you,

Love, Jaz xx’

I stood up, grabbed my suitcase and quietly left the room.

Nate’s POV

I woke up to the sound of silence. I shot up and noticed Jaz wasn’t by the window. I rubbed my eyes and looked around the room to see her suitcase was gone… again. It wasn’t until I noticed that this time she’d left me a note;

‘Nate,

Since it’s clear we need a time out I’m going up to visit my parents in Scotland, since I’m in the UK anyway, I might as well, I’ll call you in a few days but remember I never stopped loving you,

Love, Jaz xx’

I sighed and climbed out of bed, I got dressed and met Crissi and Daniel downstairs for breakfast. “Where’s Jaz?” Crissi asked looking around, “On a train to Scotland” I sighed, “We had a fight last night” I said showing Crissi the note. “Well at least she left you a note this time” Crissi said. “Yeah I guess, well since she’s going to Scotland, I’m going to Croatia” I said. “Nate…” Daniel said, “No, she’s right we time apart from eachother, I just hope she will call me” I said.

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