Philophobia | e.d + g.d

Chapter 12

Read a/n at the end please🙃

Cassidy's POV

I was getting really tired about ignoring Jess and Grayson. They hung out more and more, and even though it hurt me, they looked really cute together.

I think they were secretly dating behind my back, but ignoring them just made me look childish.

I decided one day to go over to Jess and forgive her, because I missed her crazy self.

She was sitting at a table in our geography classroom at lunch, scribbling words into her textbook.

"Jess?" I half-whispered, fiddling with my hands. She looked up at me, dropping her pen.

"What," she said, quiet harshly. My heart was thumping in my rib cage, and my hands started to get clammy. I stuffed them into my jacket pockets and I carried on.

"I'm r-really sorry for ignoring you. I should have just forgiven you," I blurted, "I was being really immature."

She stared at me for a few seconds, but then embraced me in a tight hug.

"Thank God, Cassidy!" she sighed, relieved. I smiled a little as she pulled back. I wasn't so angry at her or Grayson anymore. It would take some time to get back to normal with Grayson - friend wise - but I wasn't that angry anymore.

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Ethan had dropped me off at my science classroom after lunch, sneaking a quick kiss on my forehead. I rolled my eyes at him as he went down the corridor, but when I entered my class, a small smile crept onto my face.

"Okay class, settle down now." My teacher eyed me even though I wasn't talking. I sat next to Grayson, and like every other science class, we didn't speak.

I have to end this sooner or later. I thought to myself while Ms Flingsby wrote on the board.

"Today we will be doing an experiment, and it is all about working together." Great. Normally we just had to write stuff down.

Grayson went to get the equipment while I got some goggles. We didn't speak to each other. We just started the experiment silently.

I kept on hesitating to speak. Why couldn't I speak? What was I going to say? Grayson I forgive you?

Throughout the whole lesson, I said nothing. Nothing seemed to come out of my mouth, however many times I tried. We were packing up our equipment when I spoke.

"Do we stick the sheet in?" Really? That's all you can say?! I scorned myself. I already knew that we had to stick in the sheet.

"Yeah." he mumbled. I nodded and that was that. I couldn't bring myself to say anything else.

"Good afternoon, class." Our teacher dismissed us from our class just as the bell rang. Grayson was walking out of the classroom as I trailed behind him. He slid out of the door and down the corridor.

"Grayson, wait!" I yelled after him. He turned around to see who was calling him. When he spotted me, his eyes widened. I approached him slowly as everyone else walked past us or lingered around us to see what was going on.

Couldn't they go away?!

"What?" he replied as he stared into my eyes. I looked away and heat rushed up to my cheeks.

"I just want to say that I forgive you." I whispered so that only he could hear it and started to leave.

"Cassidy!" he ran back after me, grabbing my arm. "I'm so sorry. I really wish I could have gone back to that day and made everything go right. I didn't mean to hurt you, Cassidy. I'm so sorry." He pulled me into a hug and I hugged him back, breathing in his scent.