Invisible c.h

already missing

Day 5 (I'm skipping days hehe)

I don't think I can take this anymore, I need to leave, this life isn't what I want live, I can't do this anymore.

I thought everything will get better, but no I can't wait for things to get better, for me to get better. It hurts to much and I can't take it anymore.

This shitty life, I need it to end, no one deserves to live like this, no one, it hurts to much and it's just not healthy to feel like this every single day.

No one will notice that I'm gone though, I'm already missing, and I haven't left yet. That's how invisible I am.

All I have now is my shadow, and my regrets. My shadow reminds me of how I'm still alive, of how I'm still living this hell.

I have many regrets, like one is being born, I don't want to be here, I never wanted to be here, this life is bullshit.

I started typing my letter. Some call it a suicide note, a goodbye note, but I like to call it a song. A song that has all your memories, all your feelings. Everything. I put my soul into that note, I poured out my feelings into it, I gave it everything I've got, because this is that last thing I'll be doing in my life.

I typed and typed until everything sounded perfect. Until everything was the way I wanted. I read it over and over to see if it had any mistakes, to which it didn't and printed it out.

I grabbed it and left the note in my drawer, hidden under my things.

Tomorrow is the day, tomorrow I'll be leaving this hell hole, tomorrow I'll finally be happy, tomorrow is when I finally start living my life the way I wanted it to be.

I smiled, with tears running down my cheeks, I don't even know who I am anymore, I'm invisible to myself now.

Invisible.