So, today I'm gonna tell you about someone, we shall call him S
S had a crush on me last year but I wasn't diggin it because he still had feelings for someone(who happened to be my best friend at the time). So anyways, my feelings grew for him but I never told anyone. Anyways, he basically told me that he didn't have any feelings for her anymore. And even when people would ask him in school (in front of everyone) he would say "I only like Chandi." And it made me so happy.
I had gotten back together with my ex in February but I still liked S. I just didn't wanna tell my ex no Bc he was being hella sweet to me, but of course it was all a lie(that's a story for another time).
But I broke up with him later so lmao.
So fast forward to the end of the year. He asked me to prom (our crappy little 8th grade prom) and of course I said yes. I was so excited and then he got grounded. Yes. GROUNDED.
He told me that he would try to come but he couldn't promise.
Being the little mushy person I am, I hoped that he would come no matter what and dance with me *romantic movie scene*
Anyways. I got all pretty and got to the school. I had 3 girl friends and they all had dates. I was literally the only person there just sitting and waiting for S to come.
I started thinking a lot and I just started crying really bad.
That was the day I realized I loved S. I still love S.
Well, the Monday after that, he asked me out. I said no. I was scared that my feelings would grow before we had to go to different schools (wow, this sounds like a story from my other ex). So yeah, I said no and he kept flirting. Of course I wanted him to flirt. I liked him a lot.
So. I spent my whole summer wishing I would have done something because my feelings were growing anyway.
I told him I loved him and I will always love him. I told him that 4-5 years is just too much to wait. I have always been scared that he will find someone better than me, it's easy to forget someone you can't even see. People have flirted and asked me out but I never do it back. S is the only one I want.
So there's my sad life..
