they dont know my secret ( a one direction fanfic )

tdkms: chapter 8 : where is he?

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what i saw was a gigantic carbored box with the big bold letters 'ALEX EDWARD' STUFF '.

why would they have that?

what use is it to them? 

why do they have his stuff?

who is he to them? 

all these questions running through my mind at a houndred miles an hour. neeling down next to it i carefully opend it. 

i was shocked, all his stuff was here , photo albums, personal belonings and clothes. why would these 5 idiots have this ? do they know him? of coure they do! they wouldent have a random strangers personal belonings, but it wouldent suprise me if they did have a random strangers belonings knowing these boys.

i carefully picked up a photo and my eyes immidetly waterd at the picture. i remember that day. 

FLASHBACK......

"come on j it will be fun" young alex urged me on. i was 6 years old and alex was 8, he was trying to get me to go on a ropeswing acros the lake. but of course me being the sensible kid i was refused cowering in the corner.

" no al, what if we get hurt" i whisperd. seeing the fear in my eyes he made his way over and embraced me in a tight hug. " okay jj lets go get ice cream" i frowned at the stupid nickname he gave me. 

we went to get ice cream but alex decided if we had a ice cream fight insted of acctually eating it. 

we giggled and played untill we got kicked out. still giggling we made our way home. 

we made our way up to my bedroom and talked noncense untill alex turned serious " jamie i want you to know that i love you more than life itself and i never want you forget about me " 

" i promise and al? i love you too" and we had a big hug not letting go and eventually fell asleep together.

FLASHBACK OVER.....

i diddint realise i was full on sobbing before i felt a hand on bak soothing me. i turned around and saw zayn " shh honey whats wrong" he tried getting it out of me but none of them will never know. it will be a secret i will take to the grave.

ignoring zayn i got up and brushed past him running to my room still sobbing. 

when i got to my room i slammed and locked the door sliding down it. shoving my head in my hands. 

i heard the boys outside talking but i ignored them deciding i would have a nap.

***********************************2 weeks later***********************************************

the boys hadent mentioned anything regading the atic incident as i like to call it.

i was now in the gym boxing with liam , with the boys watching and might i say  i was whooping liams ass. after i had him pinned down the ground and pinned his arms behind him sitting on his back.

" WOO LIAM YOU JUST GOT YOUR ASS BEATEN BY A 14 YEAR OLD!!!!!!!!" Louis screamed. after i let go of liam we went up to kitchen to grab a snack ( or in nialls case a feast, but ho hey) 

after that we snuggled up on the couch to watch a horror it went zayn, niall ,harry,  me, louis and liam. but throught the movie harry and louis were grabbing on to each other for dear life with me stuck in the middle, oh joy , note the sarcasam. 

no-one was really paying attention to the movie so i thought this wsa the best time to ask about alex.

" um guys "  i asked in a small voice. all eyes and heads turned on me and the movie was lowerd down. taking a big gulp of air i manafed out " how do you guys know alex edward?" i saw them all stiffen up untill harry finally awnserd "um....well...hes a....a... old freind" he stutterd but looked anywhere but me. 

" where is he now" i asked hoping i would get a awnser " hopefully rotting in a dump" i heard louis mutterd and right there and then my heart shatterd. why would he say that? 

i couldent take it why wernt they awnsering ?? 

"GOD DAMN WHERE THE HELL IS HE NOW!!" I  screamed getting of the sofa. all thier faces showed stunned expresions. 

" why do you want to know ?" liam questiond and soon all the boys had a face of question on them.

"i...i.. hes a old friend" wow that was a understatment. 

thier faces turned back to normal before louis awnserd " he lives in newcastle now" 

good that was all i needed. i made my up to my bedroom, locking the door and began searching for him after all these years.

*************************************zayns pov*********************************

what the hell was that ? why did she want to know where that scumbag was? but i knew he wsa more than  friend i could see it in her eyes. 

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