Luck, Lust and Lana

The Initial Aftermath

I am exhausted. It has been quite a day. First the drive, then the concert, and then...tonight. After Lana finished with me, I had my way with her. I gave her a taste of her own medicine. Let's just say, she loved every minute of it. I teased her, tormented her, and pleased her enormously. It was incredible. She's so fucking sexy and beautiful. I still can't believe that just happened. Once Lana "finished", we cuddled and talked for hours listening to music - mostly Nirvana and Bob Dylan. We laughed telling each other old stories about ourselves. We also had really deep conversations about music, movies, and life. She never ceases to amaze me - her talent, her beauty, her emotion, her whit and brains. I feel so lucky just to be lying next to her in bed right now.

In the midst of our life talk, I went to the bathroom and came back to find Lana asleep on the bed. I tucked her in, gave her a kiss, and also went to bed. Or tried to at least. You see, I CANNOT fall asleep! My mind is still racing, mostly with thoughts of Lana. But, unfortunately there is a little voice inside of me that is causing me worry. My boyfriend. We've been dating for three years. He's my first love -- my first everything for that matter. We've been there through so much with one another. I can't help but feel guilty for cheating on him with Lana. I mean, sure he's changed a lot since we started college. In fact, he's kinda turned into an asshole and hasn't necessarily been treating me the way I would like or think he should. But, that still doesn't make what I did right...even though it felt so right. God, I can't stop thinking about it. About her.

I turn over to look at her sleeping. If it's possible, I think she's even prettier when she's asleep. I quietly reach over to grab my phone off the nightstand. As I unlock it, a message from my boyfriend pops up: *I'm glad you had fun at the concert, wish I could've gone with you. I love you so much, Cait! Get some rest and I'll see you when you get back tomorrow. Sleep tight, beautiful! :)* Shit. As if I already didn't feel bad enough. I shake it off and lock my phone placing it back on the table. I turn over and wrap my arm lightly around Lana's waist. All I know right now is that I am extremely happy here, with her. As our breathing synchronizes, I fall asleep to the sound of her heartbeat.

---------------------------------------------------MORNING----------------------------------------------

"Good morning, beautiful!" I hear whispered lightly in my ear, so lightly in-fact it kind of tickles. I smile and feel a kiss on my cheek. "Good morning," I say turning over to face Lana. She's completely make-up free, it's about 9 am and she just woke up, yet she is the most beautiful person I have ever laid my eyes on. "How is it you still look perfect when it's this early in the morning?" I ask amazedly. She blushes and giggles, "Oh, shut up! Mornings aren't your favorite time of day are they?" "Why do you say that?" "Well you look funny in the mornings," she says playfully. I gasp and start tickling her, "I do not!! Take it back!" "Or else what?" she asks mischievously. "Or else first I'll tickle you to death and then I'll punish you," I say with a wink. "Ohhh, is that a threat or a promise?" she asks laughing. I lean down giving her a kiss. Her lips are so smooth. I could kiss them forever. She pulls away smiling, "So, what are we doing today?!" she asks excitedly. "Oh, I don't know actually...I guess I kinda figured I'd go home today," I say awkwardly. "Leave? Wait, why?!" I'm taken aback. "Well for starters I have work and that's when I told my friends and family I'd be back. I also thought you'd be busy and have to leave town for your next concert." "No, silly! I always have a day or two off before I head to my next location. I don't leave for North Carolina until tomorrow so I was hoping you'd stay with me today and maybe again tonight? I know you have stuff to get back to, but I'd really enjoy your company," she says coyly while playing with my hair. "Um...yeah, sure! I'd love to! I just need to figure out what to tell my boss, family and friends," I say. "Tell your boss you had a family emergency and tell your friends and family that you met someone or something." "Yeah, I guess that'll work. I'll text them now," I say as I lean over her to grab my phone.