Dearest Whomever,

Ice & Fire

Published on :         2015, 10th DECEMBER

Dearest Isaac,

Do you still remember me?

You were the transferee in our class-back in Grade 5. I think when were just 11 years old back then.

You were still short and chubby. You had this thick messy-looking beehive on your head. Oops!-I meant your hair. Your favourite black G-Shock watch on your right wrist, and the small smirk you always plaster on your face that forms a dimple on your left cheek.

Cute :)

You weren't the most attractive one in our batch but I really found you cute.

1998, 12th January

Your first day in St. James' Academy. You noticed my golden flower clip that kept my fringe out of my face. You said the clip didn't suit me because I had a tanned skin-'cause of sunburned.

Though, I wasn't offended. I was shocked that you initiated to talk to me. We became seatmates too.

I found you very comic. I can't help being amused even with your corniest jokes.

Before, you can't pronounce my first name right. Faye. You pronounced it as 'Fire'. That gave me an idea to call you 'Ice' because of your first name-Isaac.

You were really good in Maths too. I have to admit, I got interested in Maths since then. You were a good teacher! I used to stare at your pinkish face when you're busy teaching me. Maybe that's also the reason why I like asking you for help so that you'd teach me.

Err.. Do I sound creepy now? Didn't mean to scare you though.

Trina Flynn. Do you remember her? My bestfriend-who happens to be your crush that time.

At the age of eleven, I had weird feelings in me already. There's this ticklish feeling in my tummy whenever you talk to me. The horses running in my chest when you smile at me.

Gosh, Ice.

Only you made me feel this way. I knew back then that I've already had a crush on you.

1998, 24th April

During recess, we played one-on-one in basketball. When you found out that I know how to play basketball, you pulled me to the court to play with you. I called a time-out to take a short rest before entering to class.

You plucked the biggest yellow Hibiscus at the nearest potted plant. With that flower in your hand whilst walking towards me, I took the flower and I can't help but to assume, "Is this for me?" and expecting you would give it to me.

Unfortunately-It was Trina's birthday. You even asked me if she'd like it. Disappointingly, I shrugged and rushed to the classroom without saying a word back whilst holding that flower of yours.

I placed the flower in her desk. I was not in a good mood to care if she liked it or not.

...

Weeks passed and we're getting really close to each other.

Trina started teasing me that you and I might have something between us. I denied anyway. Well, that's the truth. Though I guessed she didn't bought that.

Then, our classmates started teasing us. Some spreaded rumours that I liked you. I was embarassed and got defensive-which gained more teases because I've been in denial.

I bet you remember that part, right? You were humiliated too. You got into a fight because you knew you don't like what just happened.

1998, 6th June

I was beyond surprised. You gave me a basketball jersey for my birthday. With Kareem A. Jabbar's name behind it!

I always wear it when I go to sleep. At least, that object reminded me of you all the time-and you were the last thing that's on my mind before I doze off.

...

Yeah... It's kind of embarassing admitting this to you, after 17 years. Haha!

I just want to say that-I miss you Ice!

I wonder where you are now. Are you still studying? Do you have a family now? There are so many questions running in my mind.

1999, 5th May

You suddenly asked me, "If I told you I liked you, would you like me back?"

I was dumbfounded. I never knew you would ask. Yes, I said I liked you-as a friend. I knew we were too young to involve in a relationship.

But the million dollar question is, Did you really liked me back then?

Or just because I confessed to you that day that I had feelings for you?

But still, thank God that you chose to keep our friendship going despite my embarassing confession.

1999, 29th November

You disappeared. Like literally. We lost contact. Your promise? You said you'd go to high school with me.

I heard you moved to Singapore to continue your studies-Well, your friend, Marco told me. I was angry because you left me without saying a thing. You didn't say goodbye.

I....didn't get to say goodbye to you.

I won't be mad if you'd break your promise. At least, you could explain to me.

...

After all of these memories, I bet you'd remember me by now.

Ice, I want to tell you that I'm engaged! He is Paolo. We met at work and we've been together for three years.

I fulfilled my dream as a nurse! I work as a company nurse in Light n' Water Company and met my future-to-be husband there.

I would really like to meet you again someday. I just don't know how to track you.

Love,

Faye Alcantara (Fire)