Once, I Fell In Love With A Stranger

Travail

Difficulties..

It's monday and I'm not in the mood to go to school.

Still couldn't believe on what James have told me..

Arranged marriage? Seriously?! Someone still do that kind of shit?

"Kaecy! Are you going to shower first or I'll go first?" My roommate shouted

"Yeah I'll go after you." I said

*one text message received*

A message from him.

"Good morning my Love."

I replied:

"Morning."

"Why? What's wrong" he replied

"Nothing."

"Then why does it feel like you're not in the mood?"

"I don't know. I have to go now. I'll be late for my classes. Bye." I replied

I'm really not in the mood to talk to him at all. I don't know. It just feels like I lost hope. Do you get it? I mean, how will you continue to love someone you know that is getting married soon?

What's the point of holding on if he's letting go soon?

Why did I even fell in love with this man?!

What if he never really loved me? What if he just want attention and care?

What if he leaves me hanging?

What if he leaves me waiting.. for him to come back?

How did I even got into this situation?

Argh!

Do I love him enough to take the risk of letting him go so he could get married for his father?

Damn this risks.

Damn this shitty questions.

Damn this life.

*one text message received*

"Please always remember, I love you." a message from James.

"I love you too. But loving you takes too much risks. There's just too much to lose." Then tears slowly fell down from my eyes.

I looked at his message again. I've decided not to reply.