October 21
Dear Calum,
You really are as bad as they say.
It seems like you know the impact you have upon others. You know what you said will ruin their day. You know you've torn them down. Yet you laugh. You laugh and you joke and you don't seem to care.
Those moments where you express kindness, where you help me, and make me feel important. They aren't worth it. I don't want your attention if it means I risk getting pulled down like everyone else.
The joy I get from talking to you isn't worth the price of my confidence. But I think I always knew that.
I figured maybe you were just cautious. Cautious of who you trusted and what you shared. I figured maybe this whole reputation you had was just from a lack of sharing.
I thought i could trust you. That maybe I was safe since you seemed to treat me differently than others. I guess my problem isn't that I trusted you, it's that I still continue to trust you.
And the jokes on me. I thought maybe; just maybe you trusted me.
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