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October 23.2015
Dear Calum,

It's been about a week since we've had a completely normal conversation, but then again, when were our conversations ever actually normal. I mean unless insults are a routine thing.

I don't know why I continue to write to you since I never intend for anyone to see these. Maybe I do this because I think it will somehow magically transform you? Or maybe it's just because I don't want to say half the stuff I think of when I'm around you.

I've begun compiling a list of things I constantly think but will probably never say to you.
1. You're a lot smarter than people give you credit for
2. If you just cared about one subject you'd have a better average than me.
3. I can't seem to ever keep my mind off you
4. I could be so much better than your current girlfriend if you only looked at me instead of through me.

I mean I know we've begun establishing a friendship, but I just feel as if I'm only around to entertain you when you're bored. I've spent the past few months hoping and wishing that you would dump her and realize you can do better.

But I've also begun thinking maybe I can do better too. Maybe I'm only using you as an excuse so I don't have to worry about looking elsewhere.

So I tested this theory today. I willed myself to keep my thoughts off you and to just be open to other options. And surprisingly someone did catch my eye. Luke.

I'm generally a Shy person but I approached him (though I terribly didn't want to). And he got me invited to a party tonight. I've tried to keep my mind from wondering if you'll be there too.

But I guess I'll have to wait and find out tonight . I have to go get ready.

~Maybe see you soon, Hudson

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A/N ok so here's the deal.

1. I have decided I will be adding some questions of the chapter from now on in my books. I just like the idea of it and to hear peoples thoughts.

2. I will have an update ready for guilty pleasures tomorrow. It's half finished rn and I promise I will post it tomorrow.

So now, here we are.

First QOTC: Why do you think Hudson has been so quick to forgive Calum?