I admit that towards the end of the date about what happened, I just couldn't make a decision that whether it was a boon or bane for my current feelings. It was some fleeting moments of warmth that floated between Alyssa and I, and the world ceased to exist as it did. I could almost hear the beat of her heart as though I had developed superhuman tendencies.
When her hands were balancing themselves on my chest, her face caressed by the skin of my neck, I had frozen in my place with an almost overwhelming force of nature. I had never been this close to someone, but suddenly, being close to her, seemed so... simple.
And in that exact moment, I knew that all my hopes of getting over this girl were doomed from the start.
That night I had gone home with this realization, and absolutely no clue of what was going to become of my heart now. Kevin had tried to boast me to do something cool and get her attention for good and hold it. But I was just a normal guy who wouldn't know how to socialize with the girl he liked.
Then just as I was slowly recovering from this incident, came Monday. That day everything gave me a heart attack: first Alyssa and my hands touching when I was picking up her pencil; then her running into me.
I was walking over to my locker completely unaware of what was going to occur in a few seconds. I took a turn in the corner, then before I could comprehend anything, a flash of brown hair was coming towards me in lightning speed, wildly clashing with my body and causing us to fall on top of each other.
My entire being felt paralyzed knowing it was my crush now laying on top of me in the middle of the hallway and in the scrutiny of gossip-mongering high school kids. Even more paralytic was the sensation of her lips touching my exposed neck like an electric shock.
I just wasn't able to grasp on anything but one thing I was sure about: the spot her lips had touched was never going to be clean no matter how many showers and baths I took.
Working in the library where she was just a few rows away from me made me hyper-sensitive to her presence. Taking advantage of my lonely state, I took a few minutes to calm myself down first. My heart had been beating like crazy throughout the entire time we were in the Principal's office. I was frustrated at myself for being so pathetic about my feelings. I bet all those cool boys didn't stand in library aisles trying to not get a panic attack from just sitting beside the people they liked.
***
It had been a week since that incident in the hallway. We had been avoiding each other whenever our ways happened to be overlapping. While it was good for me to recover from our previous encounter, it also made feel as though the hope of a chance was slowly evaporating.
Shelley did ask us to eat with her and her friends and Kevin stressed the importance that we follow her invite. Still that didn't make anything better because Alyssa was not there half of the time, and the whole table was now filled with Shelley's cheerleader friends who were just as obnoxious as her. There were only few genuinely good people who were kind enough to give me sympathetic glances on Shelley's touchy-feely habits.
On the Monday of the next week, I finally built up enough courage to talk to Alyssa at lunch. She wasn't there at the Math class today so I figured she might be coming in late. I was anticipating her presence at the table we usually ate our lunch so much throughout the entire day that it completely slipped my attention that I hadn't seen her at all today.
Was she not at school? Did she fall sick?
"So, where's Alyssa? Didn't she come today?" I casually asked Savannah when Kevin and I sat down at the table with our lunch trays.
She looked at me through hooded eyes. "No, she's sick so she might not be present for a day or two."
"Oh." I hoped it wasn't anything serious.
"'Oh'? Aren't you going to ask what happened?" She asked me.
I flushed slightly. "Uh, yeah, what happened to her? Is she fine?"
"It's just the flu. And about whether she's fine or not, why don't you find out yourself?"
"What?" My eyes slightly widened at what she was implying.
Savannah shrugged. "Well, Shelley and I were going over to her house after school. Why don't you join us as well?"
"You're suggesting he goes over to her house with you both?" Kevin butted in.
Her eyes flicked over to him. "You too can join us, of course."
Sure, I had woken up with the determination of talking to Alyssa this morning but visiting her at her home like this was far from a normal talk. A person's home is the most intimate and personal part of them. I didn't know if it would be an appropriate idea for Kevin and I to trespass into this part of Alyssa no matter how much I longed to be close to her. For crying out loud, Alyssa and I had spent our last week religiously avoiding each other because we had gotten too close too many times, so me going over to her place made absolutely no sense to me.
Knowing I lacked the courage to do that, my mouth betrayed me and agreed to this plan. Perhaps, if I were to see her when she wasn't well, it would bring us closer... or at least as close as fate would allow.
"Okay, it's only good manners to check on people when they're sick." I said to Savannah.
Kevin and I shared a look.
He supported me. "Yeah, after all we have become friends in these days we've sat together."
"Oh," Savannah's eyes drilled into me, "you've become quite a pair of friends alright."
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Four Years
Teen Fiction[ 𝗔𝘃𝗮𝗶𝗹𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝗼𝗻 Dreame, Webnovel & Mangatoon!] You know that moment when you've finally had enough of a certain feeling and now want to do something about it? That's exactly where Jace Crewe's at after pining after Alyssa Dio...
