Inseparable At Heart

Chapter 8

Eren's POV:
I sit silently in class, my head in my hands. Taking nothing in from the lessons and waiting for the hours to go by meaninglessly. Predictably, Levi isn't here sitting in the chair next to me. I'm so stupid. I shouldn't have even thought about telling him something like that. I mean, was he playing me when we kissed. I feel the anger boil up inside of me. He walked into my life and messed it all up- quite ironic how he likes to keep everything clean and tidy.
I should just forget about him, all of the memories, everything. I need to start a new slate 'cause the one I have now is shattered and just fucked up.
Who knew Levi Ackerman could cause so much joy and yet so much pain. And the thing that gets me is, the fact that he said that a friend is not worth having if they end their friendship over something like this. He just did it himself. I d-
Brrrrrrrriiiiiiiinnnnnng!
The bell signalling the end of class 7, our last class. I am now free from this hellhole and ready to sulk in my room.
I exit the Science block and begin the long walk back to my dorm block. It's already dark and there's a rather strong wind. Good thing I'm wearing my jacket. I speed up my pace, hoping to get to my apartment quicker.
As I round a corner I feel myself get dragged behind the old, abandoned Humanities block.
Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.
I get thrown up against the wall letting out an 'oomph' before I make eye contact with gunmetal grey eyes.
Levi.
"Shitty brat..." He whispers in his husky, monotone voice before he presses his lips against mine.
No.
I abruptly push him away.
"No. Levi. You can't just storm off after I announce my feeling for you and just come and kiss me like it's all fine because it's not. Do you even know how that made me feel?"
I push him away more but this time I see the hurt in his eyes. I can't give in now though.
"You said yourself that a friend was not worth having if they ended their friendship over something like this and you just fucking proved it to me after you left me sobbing on the fucking ground!"
I see the shock and hurt rendering properly on his face now and I feel a pang in my chest.
"Eren, I did this because I didn't want to hurt myself. I'm sorry. What if something happened to you?! I wouldn't be able to forgive myself even if it wasn't my fault."
It started raining, heavy. Soaking both of us.
"Did you ever consider how I would have felt, how I did feel? Did you ever wonder what it felt like to just be left all alone after the one you had just bloody confessed to turned his back on you?! No, you probably don't because you did it so you wouldn't hurt yourself, because you don't care about hurting others, because you like hurting others, because you like toying with people and just pushing them aside once you're bored. Well, did you ever wonder how that person fucking felt? How it felt to have your feelings shattered to spare somebody else's who doesn't give two shits about how you feel?" My voice cracks on the last sentence and I'm out of breath from my rant.
I see a tear drop run down Levi's face. I know well enough that it wasn't rain. Levi was crying. No. I made him cry. I just shattered his feelings for the sake of my own.
I pull my hood up over my already damp hair. "Goodbye Levi."
The mud squelches under my feet but I'm just in ear shot to hear Levi say one last thing before he sinks down against the wall and lets the tears stream down his face. "Bye Brat, I love you."
I stop in my tracks, but don't turn around. What's done is done. Those three words don't mean shit anymore. But, no matter how I feel, I can't do anything about it now. It's all my fault.

~Time skip :'( ~
I sit on my bed, sobbing hysterically into my pillow. I can't even begin to explain how I feel. I love Levi, of course I do. I can't deny that fact and in all fairness, I should never have said some of the things I said before. The right thing to do would be to apologise but I can't exactly do that now can I? I should wait a bit. Actually, I think I'll just leave him a note, maybe some flowers too? The guilt for what I just said is the equivalent to a fucking whale sitting on my shoulders.
I shrug on my already damp jacket and jog over to the flower shop. I was just planning to get some simple red roses but then something catches my eye- blue roses.
How unusual... I think to myself before taking a bouquet to the cashier. I get out the appropriate sum of cash and hand it in. I then begin to walk back, flowers in hand, thinking of what I should write on the note.
As soon as I get in, I placed the flowers in a water-filled vase, not wanting them to wilt, and begin writing Levi's note. No more than 15 minutes later. I'm sealing the envelope, taking the flowers from the vase and walking up to the ravenette's door. I place the note and flowers down before knocking twice and quickly hurrying back to my own apartment.

Levi's POV:
My grieving is interrupted by two loud knocks. Part of me hopes that it's Eren but it would take a miracle for that to happen. I slowly arise from my position on the sofa and walk over to the door. As I open it, I find a note and a bouquet of flowers lying on the floor. I pick them up before shutting the door behind me and placing the letter on my desk and filling a vase with water for the flowers. As I unwrap the plants I am taking surprise by their appearance. Blue roses.
I immediately think that their from Eren as I gently place them in the vase and walk over to my desk, ready to open the letter. I turn the envelope over to find 'Shortie' written on the front. It's from Eren. A tear slides down my cheek as I think back to when I began crying in front of the brat. That's the most emotion I've shown on my face in years. I really must love that brat. As to why I got so angry about him confessing to me, I don't know.
I sigh loudly before tearing the envelope open, not bothering to use my letter opener. My eyes skim over the words as I pull the paper out.
Hi Levi,
I want to apologise for before, my anger got the better of me. I don't know if that's a plausible excuse but it's a true one. I understand if you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore, especially after me not having the balls to come apologise face to face, but if you want to have a go at making this work, then meet me at the campus park in 15 minutes. I'll wait for up to 30 minutes but after that, I will leave, taking that as a goodbye sign.
- Eren
P.S. I hope you liked the flowers.

I'm indecisive on whether to go or not but he said he wants to have a go at making this work and after what I did, this is a miracle. I check my watch and-
Shit! It's been 12 minutes since I got the letter already!
I quickly shrug on my hoody before rushing out of my apartment and out to the park.

Eren's POV:
I check my watch. It's been 20 minutes since I got here, 10 more minutes and I'm leaving. I take my phone out and toss it between my hands. Pretty irresponsible but right now I couldn't care less. It took me 15 minutes to get here but that's because I ran, that's why I allowed him 30 but right now, he only has 5 minutes left. So, I wait and just as I'm about to call it a day, I see his short figure round the corner towards me, head down and hands in pockets. He comes to an abrupt stop about a meter away from me before we meet eyes.
"Hi Levi."
He offers me a small smile in which I return before I stride up to him and wrap my arms around him. I can feel his body tense before it quickly relaxes again. I inhale his scent, glad to be back in his arms.
This isn't like some petty argument you'll have in middle school then make up straight after and hug each other and everything. I just thought a hug like this would be more effective than words.
"Eren?"
"Hmm?"
"I...
"You what?" I pull out of the hug, grinning, and step back to look at his face.
"I'm cold."
I laugh out loud, grateful that he's back to his old self. And as if to solve his problem, I give him another warm hug before passing him my jacket.
"Here."
He gladly accepts it and I smile at him.
"I'm sorry for before. If I hadn't had confessed then it wouldn't have happened. It was stupid of me, I didn't know what I was expecting." I give a half-hearted laugh.
"Eren, shut up. You didn't do anything wrong and I'm glad we're on good terms again. And if I remember correctly, a few weeks ago I told you I returned your feelings after you confessed in your sleep. So, I was kind of waiting for you to say it consciously."
I blush at the memory and Levi just smirks at my reaction. He laces our hands together as we begin to walk back to our dorm block. And then I realise how lucky I am for no longer sharing a room with Jean. I would never hear the end of this.

A/N
Heya! I hope you enjoyed this chapter! I made it extra long for you. Sorry if it got a bit boring or confusing but yea aha x it made me so upset writing the first half haha x it shouldn't be long until the next update but I did two updates in one day today yay!
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