Angel
"Travis come on so we can get you and your sister to school" I said doing her hair
These past 2 years been very stressful. Darius died in a bad car accident 3 months before Nevaeh turned 3. That was hard tell the kids what happened.
"Ma I'm coming" he said
I heard his little feet come down the stairs in our townhouse. We had to move due to the up keep of the bills and the up keep of the yard.
"Okay I'm ready ma" he said with his uniform on
"You got everything"
"Yes ma"
"Mhm so don't call me when you forgot something because I will not bring it"
Since he is the only boy in the house I have to be hard on him. Give him little responsibilities like make sure you brush your teeth, take a shower without me telling you, tying your own shoes, make sure you have all your stuff for school. Things like that. I know he's only 6 but I be damn if he be lazy. I will spoil my kids to a certain extent.
"Okay muffin go get your bookbag" I said as I finished her hair
She got her frozen bookbag and sat on the steps with Travis. Even though he's her uncle they act like they're brother sister which is great because I don't plan on telling him that I'm sister until he gets older and fully understands because right now he doesn't.
I packed there lunches and packed mine as well. I made sure I grabbed everything that I needed and gave the kids there lunch. We walked outside after I had put the alarm on with locking the door. The bus pulled up right on time. I kissed them on the cheek as I watched them get on the bus. Travis know the routine. Sit with your sister on the bus, walk her to class and make sure she's okay.
I got in the car and started it. I was driving to work and our song came on. 'Don't mess with my man'. I would sing the girl part while he would sing the guy part. This song brought back so many memories. I sung along with the song as if he was here with me. Oh I miss him so much. He was everything I wanted in a man and more. That was a real man. Even though we didn't always agree on certain things but we worked through it.
I pulled into my parking spot and parked. Things are just so hard with him not being here. 'Let's get married' came on and I lost it. I couldn't hold back my tears. I can't cry in front of the kids. I am their protector. I wiped my tears and fixed my make up. I got situated before going in.
I walked in and went to the break room and put my stuff in my locker. I saw our family picture. I put two fingers to my lips and kissed it placing it on his face. I got ready for my patient.
I can't walk around and be depressed all the time, I have kids to worry about that need me.
"Who do I have today Lisa"
"Caroline Wilkins"
"Okay"
I grabbed her chart and walked out into the waiting room.
"Caroline Wilkins"
I saw him stand up and there he was. Standing there before me, looking good as ever.
"Hey angel"
"Hi, you ready Caroline"
She smiled nodding her head. I checked her weight, her hearing, her eyes. The usual physical. As I was doing my job I can feel Anthonys eyes on me burning a whole into me.
"Yes Anthony"
"I heard what happened"
"That was 2 years ago, I'm fine"
"I didn't ask if you were fine, because I know you are"
"Well I told you"
"Is she doing good on her medicine"
"Yeah"
I typed on the computer the information and printed it out. She is now 2. Her birthday just passed.
"How come you always bring her"
"Her doesn't like you"
"Oh well, change doctors then"
"I trust you with her so there's no need to change doctors"
"Okay I just sent the bill to the front and Lisa will tell you when her next appointment is" I said picking up Caroline
"Be a good girl for your mommy and daddy okay" I said tickling her
"She barely see her mom"
"Sorry to hear that. Let's get you a new sticker" I said walking out with her while Anthony is on my trail
When she saw the fishes it was a wrap. She got down and went over to the tank looking at it smiling. She is really beautiful.
"We should catch up sometime"
"I'm good Anthony worry about Caroline and Tamia" I said looking down at her
"Then who is going to worry about you"
I have no to worry about me. I'm all alone in this big world with just my kids. Honestly I don't need anyone to worry about me. I'm fine.
"No one. I'm good"
"I know you to well angel. You will always be on my mind"
"And Darius will always be on my mind" I said walking away
There is always a place and time for things. This was not the place or time. The only I want and need is no longer on this earth but will always be in my heart......
