Apdopted by the Hemmings

My Past

---Jocelyn's POV---

I was lost. Confused. I didn't understand what was happening. Austin had been calling all of his friends and telling them about "leaving the city" or something. I chose not to believe that since he was a prankster back then. He was 15 and I was 14. We were both pretty awkward. Both of us were going through puberty and we both got into fights with each other a lot. We would fight over the t.v. and the Xbox and dinner and lunch. Stupid things. I wish we had just agreed on something.

My mom and dad were both alcoholics and they weren't really aroud much. I can barely remember what they looked like. I used to steal their liquor and drink it with my friends when I was 13. When I was 14 I would steel their cigarettes and beer. me and my friends used to get high in my room when we were younger. We were about 11 or 12. We would steal my dad's cocaine and we would snort it. Austin never knew... until one summer. I was 14 and we were going to the orphanage when school started back up. Me and 5 of my friends (2 girls 3 boys and me of course) had a sleep over. We were in my room smoking, drinking, getting high, and I was kissing the guys. (I was a big whore when I was 14) and my brother walked in. He coughed and yelled. "JOCELYN! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!? YOU COULD DIE FROM THAT!" I yelled back at him, "Mom and dad do it all the time! Why can't I?" "What the hell Jocelyn?! Are you retarded?" He yelled. My friends and I all yelled "Almost!" We laughed and coughed. Our eyes we're bloodshot. We were all high. And proud.

I was a rebel back in J.R. HIGH and in freshman year of high school. I stopped getting high the year we moved to the orphanage. I stopped using drugs and I stopped with alcoholism. I got my grades up to 'A's and 'B's. I was beginning to feel depressed. I told the counsler at the orphanage and she said that I would have to do sessions with her 4 days a week. Monday-Thursday. I suffered with severe depression and I tried to commit suicide a total of 12 times. I finally got over that and by the age of 15... I felt normal. A teen, I was going through puberty, I was awkward, k had boyfriends, not many but a few. I was normal.