The boy in the hospital bed

Chapter 15- Saying it.

                      "Whats on your mind?" Nathan asks me. We're sitting at a booth in the shop , watching the snowflakes fall slowly on the ground. "Nothing. " I say back to him looking down at my hot chocolate. Nathan just leans over the table and kisses me on the forehead in front of a old couple. "Ah, young love. " The woman says. She has brown and white hair and her face is framed by thick silver glasses  . "I wish you a happy holidays." The husband says to us. Nathan replies with , " You too." They then get up from the seat and walk out with their hot chocolate . "They were cute." I say and continue to drink my drink. "Tell me please." Nathan begs. "Tell you what?" I ask. "Bran, I know you weren't just sad because you wanted a cookie. Tell me the truth. . pleases ." How do I tell my boyfriend that I'm sad because hes going to have a short life? How do I tell him that being with me is giving me so many feelings at once? What do I do? Right before I open my mouth Nathan stands up and walks away. "Nathan were are you going?" I half yell. "I guess I should leave because i'm 'giving you to many emotions at once'. Uh? I see, I should just die and make is easier on you." Wow self , I said that out loud, but before he can go I run up to him and block the door. " No Nathan!You are not going to leave me again. I lost you once and I don't want to do that again. I'm tired of this sad feeling that I lost just 24 hours ago ," I can feel the tears going down on face . " I - I love you Nathan. " His eyes go soft and he puts his hands on my face and leans in. "And I love you Brandy." He says before putting his lips on mine .I said it. I finally said it.  I never knew my name would make me smile. "I'm sorry." He says, "Come on lets go home. " I go back to the table and grab my drink then go back to Nathan. "Ready?" I ask him. "Just one minute."

         He walks to the counter and buys me a big oatmeal  and raisin cookie.  "People say they are gross but I love them soo much!" I tell Nathan in excitement as he hands me the cookie.  "Your welcome." Nathan says and wraps his arm around my shoulder. "You driving?" I ask looking at the goodness treat made out of cookie dough. "You really want to eat that don't you?"He asks me while putting a big smile on his face. "Yes, I don't like the judgement Im getting from you." I tease him.  "Oh my gosh! Its a flock of turtles !!" He says while pointing over my shoulder. "Where?!" I  look around and I'm faced with the sown. I feel my hand go down and look back at my boyfriend, "You took a bite of my cookie!" I say the same time he says "Gotcha !" while crumbs fall out of his mouth. "Meanie !" I say lightly hitting his arm. We get in the car and I blast the heat while Nathan turns music on. "Where are you Christmas?" Right before he can change it I say "Nooo!" He just laughs and backs out and drives the car. I start to sing along, "My world is changing  , I'm rearing. Does that mean Christmas changes too ? Where are you Christmas ?" Slowly as the songs ends I see Nathan looking at me. "What?" I feel myself blush. "I never heard your voice before, -" "Oh, Im sorry . I should warn you before I kill a cat."  Nathan just smiles and says, " I wasn't going to say that Bran. I love your voice." 

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             Hey guys!!! School is crazy right now :| So many things are going on in my personal life!! 

I need guy advice :{] and life advice pronto . Why do they have to be so confusing !! AAHH. ALSO BIG NEWS!! my book will be going on hold soon. I will  be editing and ADDING MORE CHAPTERS!!!!

You will see more of Jordan and Brandys backstory , and also A LOT MORE OF NATHAN!!

after this book I will take a short break and write Swamp meet Royalty !! :) I have so many ideas. Make sure you are follow me and maybe when we hit 20 people i'll give  my snap chat , and Intagram away ..  Stay tuned

             ~ Renna