Tortured (complete)

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Jaycie pov

I nervously tap my pen on my desk waiting for the bell to ring. 5, 4, 3, 2, ring, ring, ring. My heart starts to beat faster in my chest as I fumble to get my stuff together to get out of class. It's almost as if I didn't know the bell was coming even though it was the only thing I had been waiting for all class. I rush to my locker and I try to stay calm knowing that Jake will come by in any second like he usually does. I kinda want to see him though, maybe he'll distract me from thinking about Harry. I'm just really nervous to see him after school after our conversation in Spanish class. We didn't even look at each other in our other I'm English and science. What is he gonna say to me? I don't want him to mention it, but I have to apologize. I just have to say it and get off the topic.

I've been so lost in thought I didn't even realize that the hallway was almost empty. Where's Jake? He always comes to my locker after class. I push the thought away and just walk out of the building. I walk over to my car and try not to look up. I want to savor the last few minutes I have before having to see Harry.

"Hey," I hear a raspy voice say.

I spin around and face Harry. I let out a long sigh. "Hey," I reply.

"Can I have a ride, my car broke down," Harry asked

"Umm.. S..sure," I hesitated.

The whole ride to my house was in complete silence. I parked in front of my house and hopped out. I rushed to the door and I heard Harry close the door to my car. I fumbled with my car keys as Harry walked up next to me. I dropped them on the ground and sighed. Harry bent down and picked them up for me

"Here you go," Harry said looking me right in the eye.

"Um thanks," I replied, trapped in his eyes. He held his hand out with the keys and I reached for them. Our hands made contact and our eyes both traveled back to each others. I immediately looked away and opened the door. Harry stepped in and closed the door behind him. He took off his hoodie revealing his curls. We stand there awkwardly until Harry breaks the silence.

"So, we should get started on the project," Harry said looking away from me.

"Yeah," I replied, a little disappointed that he wouldn't look at me.

We walked up to my room and started to work on our project. Before I knew it, it was 6 and we were both tired. I still haven't apologized to Harry for earlier so I figure I should just get it over with.

"Harry?" I asked

He looked up at me as he stared into my eyes and I looked back at his green ones. I found my heart beat quicken as he looked back at me. I realized I was staring and turned away.

"I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for what happened today. I didn't want to make you feel uncomfortable. I just... It just made me upset when you said I didn't love Jake and I wanted to prove to you how much I do love him."

I noticed that Harry moved next to my chair on the floor. "It's okay," Harry said," but tell me, what do you feel when you're with Jake?"

"What do you mean?" I asked utterly confused.

"When you two are with each other. What do you feel in your heart?" He asked.

I was surprised. I didn't really expect him to ask me that. "Umm..... Well.... Normal. It feels like it does with everybody, he just happens to be more attractive. I really like him. We work together. I l..love him." I don't know why I found it so hard to say I love him right now, but it was. "Isn't that how it's supposed to be?" I asked.

Harry looked away from my gaze and looked like he was in deep thought. "I should go," Harry said grabbing his stuff and leaving my house. He left so quickly I didn't even say bye.

What's wrong with me. Why can't I understand him. He's just so confusing, but for some reason I want him to be around. I like having him here, but he doesn't care about anybody. He doesn't want to be around me. I slump into bed. I only have to get through tomorrow. Thank god we don't have school on Friday. One more day and I might go insane.

Harrys pov: Whats wrong with me. When I'm around Jaycie it's just so different. She doesn't treat me like I'm a depressing freak, even though I am. I left her house so quickly and she looked really confused. I couldn't stay any longer though. I was sitting so close to her, and I liked it. We were talking about love. Love. Of all things. I just wanted to know what it was truly like. She says she loves Jake, so I decided to go with it but it was obvious that it was definitely not love. She just thinks he's good looking and that he's the only guy that might love her. That's not true though. She can find someone to love her and for her to love back.

I drive down the road and park in front of my house. I sit in the car a while longer knowing my uncle won't leave for the bar for about 10 more minutes. Jaycie does have really nice eyes. They sparkle in the light. It's so frustrating that she can drive me crazy like this. She's so confusing. I don't know how I feel about her. I think I'm just going crazy since nobody has ever showed any actual concern for me, or even bothered to actually talk to me. I can't wait for the weekend. Thank god it's a long weekend. I need to be isolated again, I don't want to see anybody or anything. I just need to be alone.

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