Let Him Go

Chapter 13

-Tyler POV-

-time skip 2 week-

It has been two weeks since Troye called me and I didn't answer him. I had an influx of text and voice messages from him...none of which I have answered.

Troyesivan<3: Hey Ty I haven't heard from you since I left your apartment I just wanted to make sure that you were okay

Troyesivan<3:Tyler?

Troyesivan<3: Come one Ty, I just want to make sure you are okay...

Troyesivan<3: Tilly I'm sorry please answer me I miss your voice

Troyesivan<3: Tyler you won't answer any of my calls or messages and I don't understand. You said you would be here. You said that you would wouldn't be mad and you sent me away

Troyesivan<3: Well I guess I was wrong you don't care anymore, I am not worried I made the wrong choice anymore. Clearly you don't want me.

Troyesivan<3: I guess you really didn't mean what you said...

All of Troye's messages felt like a smack in the face. I knew that he chose Connor because he like him more than a friend. In the past week both of them have posted beautifully crafted videos, obviously filmed at the same time and place.

I felt sad being left out, but I decided to throw myself into my work instead. I was writing chapters for Binge everywhere I went and I was super busy with youtube stuff. Not to mention that I had cameras all around me filming the documentary and on top of that I was finishing up my Slumber Party tour. I am a very busy person

a very busy, very lonely, kinda sad person

My phone started to ring again and Troye's contact name rolled across the screen of my phone. I sent his call to voicemail and waited for him to, inevitably, leave me a long message. Once the call had cleared I opened up my phone and went into my contacts list...the sight of the way his name was written in my phone made me feel even worse...so I edited the pain out of his name much like I edited my sadness out of my videos

I change his display name...Troye Sivan...plain and simple with no emotional ties

much like many of the other things in my life right now...

plain and simple with no emotional meaning

-Troye POV-

Its been two weeks since Connor kis-...well...I kissed Connor on the lake. Its been two weeks since Tyler talked to me last. Connor and I have gotten closer over the past few weeks, I've love the glow of his green eyes, still wishing that they were more of a greeny-blue.

We spent every moment together and the fans totally noticed. The troyler shippers began to tweet more depressing things about the end of our love and friendship. Seeing them so sad and defeated made me feel so much worse, I hated it. They were being so quiet, obviously trying to respect us as best they could.

At the same time other people began to tweet about the relationship between Connor and I. Its not like it never crossed my mind...it did. In fact I could say that it was all that I could think about. I felt sad when I realized that I had the unmistakable urge to push Connor away, and not let him in and break down my walls. What was I supposed to do now, I don't keep love around.

ConnieFrannie:) Hi Tro you should come to my apartment so that we can lay on the couch, watch netflix, and eat nutella and pizza :)

Tro: you had me at lay on the couch ;)

I laughed at my own comment knowing that Connor loved having guests so he most likely had a display of snacks already arranged. I grabbed my wallet and headed out the door with my laptop and a few other things thrown in my backpack.

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I waked into Connor's apartment and let myself in using the key that he had given me earlier in the week. I plopped down onto the couch and pulled out my computer. I was actually getting some work done on the album and the release of Wild when I felt something soft and dense hit my forehead and fell onto the couch next to me.

I peered up from my computer and saw Connor standing in the door way of his kitchen with a bag of marshmallows in his hand. I rolled my eyes

"Can I help you" I said with a giggle

"You are boring lets watch a movie" he responded dramatically

"Can I just finish what I am working on right now...I'm in the zone"

"Only if you let me hear it when you do finish" he said making his way towards me

"Its not even set to a tune yet Con. It's just words, I don't even know if I like it, it sounds weird, its not rea-" He cut me off

"These are some great excuses Tro, really, but I don't care. At least let me read it. You made it so I'm sure its amazing and deep and meaning-"

I chucked the marshmallow at him and missed his head, the marshmallow soared pasted his face and landed on the floor behind him

"Literally shut up, fine you can read it soon." I said with a smirk spreading onto my face, and Connor turned back towards the kitchen to go get snacks

I couldn't deny the fact that Connor made me happy. He was so loving and cute and he cared a lot about me. Not to mention that he was not bad to look at and...

Connor suddenly reappeared in the door way of the kitchen "you have horrible aim by the way" he smiled at me and threw another marshmallow which promptly hit my arm as I rolled my eyes at him and he disappeared into the kitchen again.

soon he came out of the kitchen and sat down next to me on the couch, repeatedly looking at my computer screen.

"God Con. you're so nosey" he inched closer "literally fuck off" I laughed as he leaned into me to try to get a better look at the computer screen.

I shut the computer and swung my arm over his shoulder while he clicked through the movies on his television. I got lost staring into space and didn't get to see when he finally decided on. It didn't really matter though because this moment was cute

Connor was sitting with his legs crossed leaning into me while I draped my arm over his shoulder

"So Troye" he looked over and me and I couldn't help but smile "what fool did you fall for" he smirked and I removed my arm from around him and crossed my arms across my chest.

"Um I have no clue what you are talking about Connie" I glared at him

"Tro don't be stupid, the lyrics were beautiful...I loved the parts was able to read" he looked at me with admiration in his eyes "what was it again....only fools fall for you, only fools fall, only fools do what I do only fools"

"Yup" I stated simply popping at the 'p' sound

"Call me a fool Troye Sivan" Connor stated simply as he turned and kissed me

hes kissing me he's kissing me omg he's kissing me my heart mean to flutter and my thoughts were going wild as he pressed his lips to mine

his lips. are on. my lips.

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A/N:

Wow what a long chapter. How are all of y'all? 

Did you see Tyler giving Troye that promo on his snapchat? Did you hear plucklyoakley (Troyler_shipped) get the promo in Psychobabble? If not go listen to it now at itunes.com/psychobabble... 

*other things that avoid obvious elephant in the room* okay bye see ya later :)

~Katie~