Let Him Go

Chapter 25

-Tyler POV-

Troye left my apartment at two o'clock and I hadn't heard anything from him since then. Korey and I grabbed lunch at Chipotle and then he dropped me back a home and now I was signing away countless pages of Binge. I was feeling the adrenaline high from all the good things going on in my life. I, Mathew Tyler Oakley, am truly a queen and it took a total meltdown and delving into sadness to help figure that out. It was now 6pm and I was in the zone jamming out and dancing in my apartment to Carly Rae Jepsen when my phone started to ring.

"Hello there Troyesivan" I said in a singsong voice "To what do I owe this pleasure" I giggled

"H-hi Tilly" he said quietly

"Troye? Troye whats going on, are you okay?"

"T-tilly..."

"Yeah Troye I'm here whats wrong, are you hurt?"

"D-do y-you think you could come over"

"To Connor's" I asked suddenly already grabbing my wallet and keys

"N-no" he cracked out

"Troye, babe, where" I asked him as calmly as I could

"My old h-hotel" he said

"I'm on my way, Troye please don't cry, I'm coming" I said before I hung up the phone

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The whole ride all I could think about was what could have happened between Connor and Troye. I felt horrible for kissing him and leading him to end his relationship. Was this really how I wanted our relationship to start? Did I really want to make the begging of your relationship with then end of his and Connors? I could help but feel the guilt weighing heavy on my heart. I was a mess of indecision and love and sadness and glee. Who knew a small Aussie could pull so strongly on my emotions.

I made my way a quickly as possible over to Troye's old hotel and asked the front desk for his room number. The attendant gave me an annoyed 'we can't let uninvited guests into the hotel without permission from the resident' I scowled and demanded to be told the information because my best friend was crying and told me to come here and some over dressed soccer mom was not going to stop me. After a minutes of arguing the bitc- I mean lovely old soccer mom- told me the information for Troye's room.

I took the elevator to the forth floor and quickly scanned the signs look for room 420 (a/n: don't make the joke). I knocked lightly and I could feel my heart beating fast as I waited for Troye to open the door. After a moment I heard shuffling within the room and a very sad and adorable looking Troye stood in the door way.

He didn't say anything or motion for me to come in so I stood in the hall unsure of what to say. "I don't know why I'm so upset. He just did what I was going to do anyway. So why does this hurt so bad?" Troye said looked down at his socked feet

"Troye..." I didn't really know what to say as we stood in the doorway of his hotel room. He brought his hands in closed fists up to his eyes in an attempt to hold back his tears. He looked up at me and the look on his face broke my heart. I grabbed his hand and walked past him, pulling him to follow me into the room. I sat on the bed and leaned against the head board and he followed and laid his head on my shoulder.

"I know that this was the right choice Tilly, I know it was, b-but I wasn't expecting to feel this" Troye said softly. I looked down at where his head was rested and admired his dark gown curls. He let out a breath "Can I tell you something"

"Anything" I said softly while rubbing circles on the back of his hand

"I didn't know what love was when I walked out of your apartment that night. And Connor taught me what love felt like, he opened my eyes to what love was and how it felt to be in love. After I discovered what love was and what it felt like...I knew that I was in love with you. I just didn't know what to do. Now Connor says that we fell out of love and I guess he could be right, but I think that I just finally realized that I loved you the whole time. I feel horrible for what I did to Connor and....for what I did to you...I'm s-sorry Ty"

"Troye boy this has been the most exciting and stressful year of your life. You're writing songs you're going on tour and you're getting older. You did your very best and I am so so proud of you. You don't need to apologize to me troyesivan, I'm not going anywhere. Life is a roller coster and no one said it would be easy..."

"No one said it would be this hard"

"So let's go back to the start" I said softly wrapping my arm over his shoulder and kissing to top of his head lightly

"I love you so bad Tilly" he said almost too softly...almost.

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OMG Hi! 

So yeah...I really have no idea what to say in this authors note. I wrote (most of) the epilogue and I'm literally in love with it so far so yeah look forward to that. It's veryyyy cute.

Also I posted the Introduction to Stand By You ( http://w.tt/1J4boom ) idk if the link will work but thats the link for the story and if the link is not working you can see the story on my profile. So yeah enjoy that too!! 

Anyway, I love you all. Thanks for commenting and voting and stuff it honestly makes me so happy. Good luck with your lives :)

~Katie~