*The next morning*
Johnnie's pov
The second I woke up I felt dread and guilt when the memory of last night come flooding into my mind. What Alex had said was 100% true. I was being selfish when I started dating Emily.
I lied there and thought about how much i messed up.
Kyle probably hates me.
I know Alex is beyond pissed at me.
And I dragged Emily into all of my drama.
And all of this was because I just wanted to be happy.
I just lied there thinking about all the damage I did.
I thought about what Alex had said last night, and it was the thing that made me feel the worst, it made me feel like the whole word just crashed down on me.
I remembered her reminding me about Kyle.
Reminding me how fragile he is.
How easy he is to break.
She reminded me how damaged Kyle really was.
More damaged then I was.
That was a hard thing to beat me in.
I was an idiot, and an asshole. I knew Kyle liked me, so why did I date someone else? Especially behind his back, I knew it would effect him the most. He was almost always with me. It didn't really take a genius to figure out Kyle liked me. It also didn't take a genius to see how I would neglect him. Sure, I still hung out with him and talked to him as often as I could, we were practically inseparable, but then that's when Emily came in.
It all started when a new semester started and we were walking to gym, she looked over at me and completed The Ready Set shirt I was wearing, I awkwardly thanked her and went back to the locker room. Things just kind of took off from there, we would talk more, but we would just kind of stare at each other, when we would go to the lockers we would look at each other or have small conversations about anything, eventually we started talking more and more until I ended up kissing her, and we just ended up dating from there.
I wish I knew how badly Kyle was hurting.
He was falling apart right in front of me and I completely ignored him.
God, how could I be so selfish? Kyle was always there for me, he was there in my weakest moments, when I was in on suicide watch he would do his best to make me feel better.
He was always there for me, and I left him by himself just so I could date some one behind his back.
I knew I had to apologise to him, but I also knew that he was still at Alex's house and she would probably try killing me if I tried going near her.
I decided I would have to talk to him during school, I had to apologise to him, I just had to find out how to apologise.
