Jinhwan's Scandal | kjh

22: Went Crazy

《Jinhwan's POV》

"Hyung, don't think too much and get enough rest! About Yerin, don't you worry, we will find her as soon as possible."

Hanbin's words keep playing in my mind as I laid down on my bed, sighing. Today is the day. The 730th day since Hana and I started dating. It was really a memorable day when I finally confessed my feelings towards her when we were on summer vacation that were held by school two years ago.

But now, not anymore.

I mean, it's not like I don't love her. It's just-ugh, I still couldn't explain myself about this. So let's forget it. I didn't text or call Hana since yesterday because I wanted to give her some surprise by pretending that I forgot today is our day. Hm, then now, what should I do? Haish.

I got up from my bed, no, I mean, Yerin's bed and walked into the bathroom to get fresh. It's not early in the morning though because I woke up late today. Now it's already 1PM. For the first time in my life, this the latest I woke up from my sleep.

Because I dreamt about Yerin last night.

-flashback-

"Oppa.." she called me with her soothing voice.

I smiled brightly to her as we ran to each other and I pulled her into my tight hug. I wanna show her how much I missed her but that was not last longer when she suddenly pushed me away. I frowned.

"You can't do this to me. No, you can't do this to Hana. You loved her, don't you? You should've forget about me. I'm nothing to you," she attacked me with her shaky voice and I could see tears in her eyes.

"Yes, I love her but I need you! Don't you see I'm lost without you by my side? Don't you see how suffer am I when you went missing days ago? Don't you know that I even cried because of you? Don't you even realise about that?!" I argued back.

She smirked, "I don't want to know about that, Jinhwan." She changed into a cold girl that I've never known. "You don't need me, you need Hana more than me! That was just your feeling. Forget me, Jinhwan. I will go far away from you."

I tried to reached her hand but she backed away.

"What are you talking about? Where are you going? Don't you missed me? Don't you need me as much as I need you? Why are you doing this to me, Yerin? Why?"

"I was the one who supposed to ask you that. Why are you doing this to me? Why, Jinhwan? Why are you keeep treating me as your scandal? Why are you keep hurting my one and only heart? Why?" she asked emotionally.

"Yerin, I--"

But then, she disappeared from my sight. The last words I heard from her mouth;

"Forget about me, Jinhwan. Learn to live your life without me."

-end of flashback-

As much as I don't want to believe it, I felt something stabbing my heart really hard as if it was really happening in my real life.

I sighed, after done with my shower and wear something comfy, I went downstairs to make something to eat. If Yerin is here, she would do it for me. Once again, I sighed. Yerin is everywhere. Whatever I do and wherever I go, I always think about her.

I swear, if she come back later, I will tell her my true feelings and be honest towards Hana at the same time. Although I will hurt Hana, I think only this way can make me explain myself to everyone. I can't bear losing Yerin and now I realized it. I need Yerin more than I need Hana in my life.

I know Yerin have the same feelings too as mine. Just seeing at the way she treat me all this time and the way she looked at me whenver Hana is around, I know she is jealous. That was why I told her for not crying over me. Argh, why are you realizing all of this now, Kim Jinhwan? You are too dumb to realize it earlier!