Jinhwan's Scandal | kjh

24: Palawan Island

《Jinhwan's POV》

Sad?

Broken?

Lifeless?

Lost?

Hopeless?

Yes, that's all what I feel right now. It has been fucking two months after Yerin's gone and I still can't forget about her. For me, she is the most beautiful memory that I ever had although I might have hurt her so many times.

After checked in to the hotel, I decided to walk around to clear up my mind. Since I've been here after ten hours of journey from Korea, now I'm here, at Palawan Island, Philippines. I didn't plan to come here since I knew nothing about Philippines. But then, Yerin's words crossed into my mind.

-flashback-

I'm so glad that she wasn't mad at me because I pretended to passed out just now. I just wanted to tease her, not to make her cry. Honestly, her face when she is crying looks so cute. It just like a little kid crying when she lost her mom.

"So, what do you think about Jeju Island? Do you love it?" I asked her as we walked side by side along the beach.

The wind right here kinda cold and strong which make me ahivers a bit. I looked at Yerin. She is totally enjoy her time with me right here as her eyes keep wandering around us.

"I love it! I love beach so much. It's really give me chill and always make me calm. Don't you think?" she replied and smiled brightly to me. Although it's going to be dark soon, but I still can see her beautiful smile.

I nodded, "If you have a chance, where do you want to go for a vacation?" I suddenly asked.

She thinks for a moment as he tapped her chin. How cute.

"I have a friend from my hometown. When we were kid, I mean, like 10 years old, she went to Philippines with her family. She went to an island and she said it was so beautiful," she told me with her sparkly eyes.

But then, her expression changed as she continued, "I wanted to go there too with my family but—"

I shushed her when I see she is about to cry. I hugged her by her shoulder as we continued our walk.

"If you want, we can go there for a vacation with other members," I whispered after a moment of silence.

Her eyes lit up a bit. "Jinjja? Omo! I want! I want!" she chanted as she started to jump like a kid.

I giggled, "We will discuss about this later okay?"

"Okay!" she smiled brightly.

-end of flashback-

Now, I'm here without her. I wish I can bring her along with me and have our alone time together. Yerin-ah.. I miss you..

I sat down on the white sand as I stared down to my lap, where my phone was. My vision getting blurry when the tears starts to forming as Yerin's photo popped out.

The wind blew gently hitting my face as the tears flow down my cheeks. I can't hold it anymore. Everywhere I go, it will reminds me of Yerin. Whatever I do, it will reminds me of her. She is everywhere and I feel like I can't escape from her. Is this a punishment for me because I was too cruel towards her before?

Am I that cruel?

Am I too bad for her?

Yes, you are. You are too greedy to own both Yerin and Hana at the same time. Now look what happened? You broke up with Hana and you lost Yerin too. What else do you have now? — my inner voice said.