Complications

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ARIANA'S POV-

I was so happy. But it seems like everytime I get happy something bad happens. I hate myself and I want my pain to go away. I reached for the razor, and sat on the ground of the shower letting the water hit my stomach as I started cutting.!

I did 20 lines across my left forearm.

I bit my lip so I wouldn't scream.

Every cut gave me about 1 minute of no pain.

I wanted more but there was so little room on my arm so I went on my hips.

I did 4 cut on each hip bone,

Wincing everytime a fresh cut was revealed to the hot water hitting the cuts that were just made.

I waited for about 10 minutes watching the blood ooze out of my arm and hips.

I decided it was time to get up, I shut off the water and wrapped a towel around myself.

I walked into my room.

I stopped and took a look in my long mirror.

I dropped the towel so I could look at the cuts that were just made.

I'm even more hideous if that's possible.

Blood was still leaking out of my cuts so I picked up my towel and dabbed the cuts.

I walked over to my dresser and put on underwear, bra, a pink long sleeve shirt, and grey sweatpants.

I threw my hair up into a messy bun and walked downstairs.

After all the scrubbing and soap I still felt so disgusting and used.

I walked into the living room and saw

Niall, Ellie, and Harry on the couch.

There eyes looked red and puffy.

"What are you crying about?"

I said looking at all of them with a straight face.

They all looked at me and gave me a confused look.

I walked to the kitchen and got out a chocolate fudge poptart.

I walked over to the couch were Harry was at and I sat down.

He started scooting towards me.

I looked at him,

He scooted up right next to me and put his arm around me.

I took his arm, placed it on his lap and scooted away so I was at the end of the couch.

"I'm sorry Harry I just don't want to be touched right now."

"Wa-What?" He said looking at me with puppy dog eyes.

I pretended I didn't hear what he just said and continued to eat my poptart.

I was watching tv and enjoying my poptart when all the sudden I heard Ellie scream

"What is that on your arm?"

I looked at my arm and stood up walking away with them behind my back.

Nothing I said back to her walking to the kitchen.

"Grab her!!" Ellie screamed

Harry, and Niall shot up and started darting after me.

Harry picked me up and put me on the island.

They each grabbed one arm.

Lift up the sleeves. She said demandingly

The did what she said but as soon as they did, they wish they hadn't.