Complications

Razors

Every step I took was more pain that what I had just watched.

I reached the doors of the hospital and walked to the lady at the front desk.

"Excuse me do you know what room harry styles is in?"

She starred at me in amazement.

"Y-Your Ariana!!"

"Yes, now can you please tell me what room he is in?"

I watched as she scattered frantically through her papers on the desk intel she came across his room number.

"He is number 424"

I ran down the long white hallway that seemed to never end.

I found his room and swung the door open to see 6 doctors surrounding him holding him down as one did CPR with the electric plates.

I watched as his chest rose from the shocks and fall in despair.

After the 8th time they shocked him I had lost all hope.

The doctors all stepped away from him and starred.

My eyes grew wide as I heard

"He slipped into a coma, and it's most likely he won't slip out so we will have to pull the cord"

I dropped to my knees and screamed in pain.

I didn't want to believe it.

"I'll give you a minute to say goodbye" the doctor said as he escorted the other doctors out of the room an shut the door behind him.

I stumbled over to Harry and layed next to him on his hospital bed.

I started crying histarically when i don't hear the thump-thump of his heart.

He's really gone.

I sat up and played with his curls as I tryed to remember the happy times but for some reason I blame myself for his death.

I kissed his cheeks and started choking on my own tears.

I wanted to die.

I layed with Harry till the doctors escorted me out the door of the hospital.

I trudged home barley making it to the stairs of my apartment before I completely broke down.

It was around 3am and everyone was asleep but my crys woke everyone up.

I ran to the kitchen throwing glass plates and cups everywhere crying harder everytime one shattered.

I looked on the counter and saw a picture of my and Harry smiling.

I remember that day like it was yesterday.

It was the first time he was sleeping over and he wanted to take a selfie.

He was kissing my cheek and I was smiling.

I screamed in agony.

It felt like my heart had shattered and there was no way of repair.

I took another plate and chucks it as hard as I could across the room causing all of my roommates to run to the kitchen in a flash.

They all starred at me like I was some kind of monster.

"What are you doing!!" Savannah asked dodging plates.

I was so overwhelmed I fell to the floor and cried.

What happen Ari?

I took a moment to collect myself before I told them the story.

I looked at Ellie who new exactly what I was doing.

I ran to the bathroom and locked the door behind me.

I heard Ellie banging on the door and fiddling with the door handle in hope of unlocking it but her wish was denied.

"STOP DONT DO IT" she screamed banging on the door.

I didn't listen.

I undressed and sat in the tub.

I grabbed the razor and made Deep cuts into my arms having the pain send me in deep thoughts of no hope and despair.

I got sent into black surrounding with the only sound of my roommates screams.