Not That Bad Bein A Side Chick

Black Place

I'm only 13 years old. Most girls my age are hoeing around trying to be more grown than what they really were. But not me. I was stuck.

This boy came into my life and changed everything. Everything. My feelings for D'Ron where growing rapidly. He had a positive effect on my life. I smiled. I laughed. And I was learning to love.

That was only on the outside. On the inside I was hurting a lot. What the fuck was I doing messing around with a 15 year old at 13? On top of that he had a girlfriend.

Shit affected my trust. A lot. If I was saying fuck Alexa and her feelings was anybody saying fuck me and my feelings? I didn't know who. If a girl who was anything like me all goody goody and smart did the shit anybody could.

I was falling into a place where everything was dark. How? Why? The hell if I know. All I know is that I had to get out. But did I want to? I mean D'Ron had a huge affect on my happiness but an even bigger on my sadness. Which was more important to protect.

Go ahead and choose Monica. Go ahead and choose.

My happiness. I'm keeping D'Ron at my side for the sake of the goodness that came with it.

That meant settling and learning how to deal with the hurt that came along with being D'Ron's side chick. My feelings would have to be pushed to side for what was really important. Me being happy.

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Not a chapter but as I continue with things that happend in the future it will help you understand. This shit really happend. Almost two years ago this was realality for me. Every part. 100% truth. Stay tuned. ✌

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