Not That Bad Bein A Side Chick

Replacing D'Ron?

It was October 1st. My Girl Scout troop had some volunteer work to do at the zoo.... At 7 a.m ! When I got got home I was even too tired to eat my lunch, until I noticed something...

I seen a bike outside. No doubt it was D'Ron. His bike was a little Mexican low rider looking kind. It was pretty cute that he rode it to me.

Damn! I had to go back in the back yard across the street where they was playing football without looking stupid or thirsty. But how? My lunch, that's it. I'll go back there to see if John wants my lunch. He'll eat anything.

That day I had on an all white long sleeve shirt with a red tank top under, jeans, and red blue and white Sperrys. My hair was pulled into a little princess crown. Oh and I had on pearl earrings and necklace. I fixed myself and walked over.

They where in the middle of a play so I waited for a little bit, then went. "John! You want my lunch?" I said waving my bag of food. "Yeah." Just then D'Ron came over to me so I walked closer to him.

"Hey girl." He said hugging me to tight that my ribs felt crushed. We hugged for a long long time. "I missed you so much." He said still hugging me. "I missed you too." "You make me wanna cry." We where still hugging. "Why?" I asked. "Just because. One day I'm going to cry on your shoulder. Will you help me?"

Awn. That was so sweet. D'Ron had his sweet moments but most of the time when where together we laughed talked and starred at each other. It was never really romantic. I liked it like that cause romance was so gay to me. The way we had it was just perfect.

He never even asked me for sex. Ever. Nothing even close. D'Ron respected me a lot. I loved that. Seeing our age difference I expected him to pressure me into stuff like that, but he didn't. He respected my wishes to to stay a virgin. D'Ron put himself before me. The nicest thing anyone has done for me.

"Yes. I'll be there." I said rubbing his back because now he was fake crying. We where still hugging. He fake sniffed. "I love you girl." He said fake crying and rocking our hug side to side.

There it was again. For the third time. The night we first met, the day we kissed, and today. Three times he has told me that he loved me. I wanted to believe him, but I couldn't. He fucked around with too many girls.

If he loved me I'd be his. If he loved me he wouldn't disappear. If he loved me we'd talk everyday. If he loved me he knew how it tore me up a little bit inside every time I seen or heard about him with another girl.

Granted he might have love for me, but I don't think that he loved me. Even if he did, I couldn't swallow the fact that someone other than family or friends loved me. Me? Monica Rhae Stevenson? Nah. No one could ever love me and I don't think I could ever love anyone.

"I love you too." I said. We hugged a little bit longer until someone called him back to the football game. "I'm going to sleep. I got up early. See you later?" I said. "Yeah."

I came in and thought about what just happened. We hugged for so long and he told me that he loved me. That flushed into my dreams as I fell asleep.

It was around 5. I had slept for four hours. Damn. I hoped D'Ron didn't leave. He did. I knew he did when I seen John inside. There was no way that he was otherwise John would have been outside. Shit.

I changed into something a little more comfortable. What? I can't exactly remember.

It was Saturday so as always I was with Leigh. We was over her house on Facebook. Creeping.

"I seen D'Ron today." I told her smiling. "And.. What happened?" I explained to her what happened. She just laughed. "You see him again?" I nodded because I really really missed him even though I had see him just hours ago. She went to my page and inboxes him.