Baking Brownies For My Next Door Neighbour

Baking Brownies... Part 13

OMG its been so long since I have uploaded, apologies everyone. writers block and college really are a bitch

but anyway I hope to finish this by the end of Summer at least so here we are with the next part, and what you've all been waiting for.

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Part 13

Chapter 13

I pulled into the garage of the Lopez household and jumped out the car, locking the door behind me. I banged on the front door knowing that if I didn’t act quickly, id turn around and go back to Tate’s. After 10 seconds the door opened.

“Jas what are you...” I silenced him with my lips…and he didn’t protest.

Memories of last year came flooding back to me, but this kiss was better by far. It was mixed with passion and desperation, like we needed each other. I know I needed him.

He picked me up-still kissing me- making me wrap my legs around his waist. I could feel his wanting for me and it made me want him even more. He carried me up to his room and gently placed me on my feet. Still not breaking the kiss, he guided me to the bed and got onto of me. Before I knew it my t-shirt was on the floor along with my jeans. With shaky hands I had only managed to get off his shirt, as the excitement of what was going on was too much for me. It’s been a year since I had this kind of intimacy with any guy and even then I was still a virgin. But I couldn’t wait any longer because I wanted this. We both did.

He kissed down my neck too in-between my breasts, and let his tongue trail back up again. I could feel my heart beat picking up as he did different things to my body that I couldn’t even begin to explain. I watched him reach in the draw beside him and pull out a condom.

“How long’s it been since you did this?” he asked smiling.

“Ermm...Never?”

He looked at me with wide eyes and pulled me up to sit with him.

“You’re still a virgin?”

“Yeah…” I replied confused. “Is that a problem?”

“I don’t know if I can take your virginity.”

I was starting to become even more nervous.

“Why? Have you never taken another girl’s virginity before?”

“No never. It usually makes them all attached and stuff.”

As soon as the words left his mouth, my heart sank. I had to look away so he couldn’t see the tears forming in my eyes. I was just another girl who he wanted to beat and delete.

“No Jas no, that’s not what I meant with you! Its just that I know im going to hurt you and as much as I really want this, I know you deserve better.”

But the mood was definitely ruined and reality had hit me again.

“I knew I shouldn’t have come here anyway, I don’t know what I was thinking.” I said pulling on my jeans and throwing my t-shirt over my head.

“No Jas, I told you I never meant it like that! Please don’t go!”

I ran out the room not looking behind me even though I could hear him trying to catch up with me. I was outside the front door before he tried to grab my arm.

“Jas please don’t do this…”

“NO!” I shouted. “You did this! I can’t believe I thought you were different, but you’re just like all the other guys that I know. You’re just like Ryan!” I shouted, tears rolling down my face.

He looked so genuinely sad that I wanted with all my heart to reach out to him. But my head got the better of me this time.

“Jas I don’t want to be like Ryan…which is why im going to let you go without a fight. I don’t want to be the guy he was. I care bout you too much, and more than you know it.” He turned around, and went back into the house. He shut the door without even looking at me. I felt horrible. Even worse than I had felt when Ryan cheated on me. This was turning out to be the worst birthday ever.

I got in my car and sat there for a good few minutes, before I felt my phone buzz. It was a text from Carmen AND Tate, asking where I was. Shit. I forgot to pick up Tate. I texted them back saying I got sidetracked at Wal-Mart. I guess id have to quickly buy some stiff from the nearest shop. I took a deep breath, started up the car, and began driving. I pushed all the shit that was going on into the back of my mind, for no one to see but only me to feel. All I could do was pretend to be happy.  I was good at that stuff anyway.

*Back to Carmen’s P.O.V*

Everyone was relieved that Jas had texted back, but I still thought it was unusual for her to forget about Tate like that. Oh well, it was probably nothing. If Tate wasn’t worried bout Jas, then everything should be fine. What was not fine though is the Jesse situation. I have so many questions that I don’t know the answers to, and I didn’t even know it I was ready for the answers anyway. Some were directed at Jesse, some at me. There was definitely something more than friendship going on between us, but was it just flirtation, or something deeper than that? Ahh I don’t know but I have to dismiss these thoughts, for a while at least. Devonte was the one I wanted? It shouldn’t be a question, it should be a fact.

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After all the commotion tonight, we all showered and cleaned up, before settling down to watch movies in Jas’s room. Everybody was a scary movie junkie apart from me. Every time we watched one, I would spend my time cuddling up to Jesse, and holding him tightly when the scary bits came on. Now I didn’t know if this was appropriate, considering all that had happened.

Tate and Jas went downstairs to go and make popcorn, leaving Jesse and I alone together. I know this happened all the time in our friendship group but little did Tate and Jas know. The more I was alone with Jesse, the more nervous I felt towards him.

I watched as Jesse walked across the room and got out his t shirt from his bag. His pyjama’s usually consisted of a baggy t-shirt and boxers. Even before, just seeing him as a friend, I admired his hotness. But now with his tanned, muscular body and dishevelled hair, I wanted to reach out and run my fingers through it.

I was in my shorts and tank top, but I felt bare though knowing id be sleeping next to Jesse like this today. As I said before, we’ve slept next to each other many times, but obviously the circumstances were different. We would sleep in the double sofa bed, whilst Tate and Jas slept in her bed.

Just when things couldn’t get even more awkward, my phone starts to ring from across the room. Jesse picks it up but not before looking at the screen. By the annoyed look on his face, I can tell who it is. He passes it to me and walk out the room without looking in my direction. What the hell?

“Hi Devonte” I say smiling.

“Hey Carmen! I stopped at your house to see you but you weren’t there, obviously Haha.”

“Yeah im staying at Jas’s house tonight”

“Oh I see. I just wanted to ask if you wanted to go out sometime again. We had fun last time.”

“Yeah definitely, just let me know whenever you’re ready.”

“Sure thing; Bye Carmen!”

I smiled as I remembered how fun it was at the ice-cream parlour with Devonte.

Just then, Jesse walked back in the room with a bowl of popcorn. My smile obviously added fuel to his fire as he looked away from me and sat on Jas’s bed. He was really that jealous? Secretly though, I was sort of flattered. I knew how to make Jesse come right back to me though. For just tonight, I decided that I would have some fun. Besides, he had blown me off too many times with his ‘non-existent’ kisses. I mean, it was just a kiss after all; and tonight I was going to get mine.