Genderfluid or FtM?

Hello

Hey everyone! *Awkward silence*

Well umm.... I don't really know what to talk about right now. I guess I will ask the question of: "How did you know that you weren't meant to be your biological gender?"  Have you always known? Did you figure it out of the years?
My reasoning for asking is because, we all come from different parts of the world and we live different lives and how we dress and our background. We all at one point or another we had/ have to find ourselves. Hearing everyone's stories we all have a lot in common. We aren't who WE want to be because we are afraid of getting discriminated against or dealing with friends, family, and at home problems. And for those of you scared know there is someone out there who understands and is or went through similar things.

Well I'll tell you how I found/ finding myself. I noticed I was always different I never wanted to hang out with the girls I started finding motorcycles/ mini bikes when I was 5 years old my parents split when I was 5. I lived with my dad and he didn't know how to take care of a little girl so he dressed me in the typical blue jeans white t-shirt and shoes, with my hair up in a ponytail. Fast forward to when i was about 7-8 I was constantly talking about girls but I was always hanging out with the guys wrestling playing football being one of the guys and that's how i saw myself. My parents just thought I was being a kid. But eventually as i got older i started developing the female body and I got self conscious and I hated it i started wearing baggy clothes and noticed the guys didn't see me as a guy anymore....But I was, wasn't I?..... I mean yes my body was changing but I still thought of myself as one of the guys well my grandma started with the "you are getting older (biological name) and you need to start preparing for being a woman and a mother" by this time i was 13. I hated the fact when we would go to stores she'd only buy my dresses and skirts n cute blouses but she did let me go to hot topic thank god!! But I never felt right with myself...so I started doing research about more of the LGBT community and started finding all these different types of genders so I started finding ones I fit with. My mom had known I like girls since I was 10 since she herself is bisexual. But we never let my dad know because he hates the LGBT community and the people. Which I hate to this day. And so just in August 2015. I finally told my mom I think I'm genderfluid but I'm not sure if that fits me yet. And we talked about it and she surprisingly is okay with it but she wont call me by my male name she has a nickname for me. My dad just keeps wondering why his clothes keep disappearing haha. So yeah.

I love you all and I hope to hear some of your stories ❤️
~Alec