Princess and I

10: My True Feelings

Xete's POV.

We went back to our own rooms - without speaking to each other. It would have been awkward but the silentness was comforting like it was made from content.

"Did you have fun?" She asked as we stopped in front of my door.

"Yes, I did. I wish we can do it again," I smiled.

"Maybe. Goodnight Princess. Have a nice dream?" She hesitated.

"Wait," I said as I harshly grabbed her arm. It looked like I was harassing her so I let go immediately.

She looked at me with her curious eyes - waiting for me to say something.

"Did you grew taller?" I asked. There was a risk that this is going to lead to awkwardness, but I had to say it.

"I dont know, why?" Sena asked curiously as if she was lost.

"Because last time I checked, you were just here," I pointed at my head and continued, "And now you're in here," I said as I placed my hand on my heart. I dashed inside my room, exhaled and giggled. I wonder what her reaction was after she have processed it in her head, or when she's alone and think about what I just said.

Who wouldn't have a nice sleep if today feels like those fairytales. If I'll dream of her tonight, I would rather stay there and not to wake up - then again, reality isn't that far from it.

I sat down with no one to talk about this. Then I decided to sit, grab a pen and write a letter to my sister. I don't know if she'll receive it because all of those chaos there but the King said I could write them a message every once in awhile and they can deliver them.

Dearest sister,

I hope everything is getting better with our kingdom. I hope its coming back to pieces; I really miss home. But with all that's happening, I think I have deeply fallen in love. But sometimes, I still question myself if I have fallen in love or I just need a person who could understand me. For the love of Christ, I told her that I couldn't throw horse shoes even though we played that game almost every day. The worst part is she's a princess - you know how we act sometimes. There are times that she can be rude, arrogant or boastful but there's something about her that I cant resist. I guess its because she knows that she's not perfect and have accepted it. But there's one thing... I know that she's hiding a secret from me - a huge part of her life from me too. Anyways, I saw her in this small ball, where she has friends from other kingdoms. She was with other girls. I saw her dance with someone, my heart aches in every possible way it can. I left without her knowing because it really hurts me to see her with someone. You feel like this too when youre friends with someone, right?

- Xeter

-X-

After months of waiting for my sister to reply. I woke up and saw a letter on a tray. I immediately ran to it and opened it.

My lovely sister,

We are all happy that you're in great shape, and in love. Our kingdom will reign again, soon, with the help of your loving princess' aid. Based on your story, I would say to you that you're fucked up, in a bad and good way. Anyways, our family would support your marriage if it will ever come to that. We already know how oriented the princess' family is and how great it is if our kingdoms will collide together. You're a nut-job if you think I get jealous when my friends dances with someone or lie about something just for someone to hold me. I would only get jealous if I love that somone. Not as a friend. I hope you get all the answers you need and take care of yourself.

- Xevve.

Thanks to my sister's help, I have found myself lurking to my own thoughts on how I'm going to handle this.