Cut To Live - A Poem Anthology

Hostage (Block)

There's a block,

In my head,

I'm blocking,

Confusion makes me dead,

Don't know what to think,

Don't know what to say,

Emotions on hold,

They say it'll go away,

Don't know how to feel,

Though the tears still flow,

Everything's clouded,

There's something there I know,

It hurts,

Tugs at my heart,

A feeling so strong,

It's pulling me apart,

Frustration and pain,

All mingled into one,

Fear indistinguishable,

I've been hidden too long,

Now I can't feel,

Not a single thing,

The pricking at my conscience,

Ebbs to silent nothing,

Daydreams in lessons,

I don't know where to,

Teacher wakes me up,

I wish I knew what to do,

Shuddering starts,

In the middle of the night,

There are the feelings,

Forming all consuming fright,

One day they'll break through,

But till then I'm a hostage,

Trapped by my brain,

In this blocking stage.