Remind Me~Larry Stylinson(AU)

4: This Is Goodbye

Chapter 4: "This Is Goodbye"

Harry's POV

When I woke up, something felt off. Louis wasn't in the bed. When I fell asleep, he was right here. I rolled over and looked at the clock. 11:30...

"Eleven-thirty?" I jumped out of bed and ran out of the room.

"Louis, why didn't you wake me up?" I asked, running into the kitchen.

To my surprise, Louis wasn't in the kitchen. I was confused. I walked to the living room. No Louis.

"Louis?" I called out.

No answer.

"Boobear?" I called out, a little louder this time.

No answer.

I walked back to the bedroom to get my phone. I picked it up and had no messages from Louis. So I called him. Straight to voicemail. What the hell? I looked around the room. Where is he? I walked back to the kitchen and leaned against the counter. I went to the refrigerator. I grabbed a bottle of water and sat down at the table. I took a sip of water and I saw an envelope on the table. I furrowed my eyebrows. What is this? I picked it up and opened it.

Dear Harry,

If you're reading this, it means I already left. I want you to know that I love you. I did this because we both know that it's for the best. I know you're going to come look for me... but don't. I just need a break, Haz. I hate doing this to you, but you're the reason I have to go. I really don't know what to say.. this is the first time I've ever written one of these. I know this is going to piss you off, but it had to be done. I couldn't go on like this anymore. I know you promised to change, but I don't know if you're going to keep that promise. This is going to be hard for the both of us, but whatever you were doing last night... I never want you to do that again. Harry, promise me that you won't hurt yourself anymore. Prove to me that you can change because I'm losing hope. I'll be back when you're ready. See you at the finish line.

Love Always,

Louis

"Oh my god..."

I'm such an idiot. Tears were flowing from my eyes.

"Louis, I promise... I promise," I cried.

What was I going to do? i had no clue where he was... How was I suppose to find him? I couldn't just let him leave me, but if that's what he wanted... I guess it was the right thing.  

"I won't let you down, Louis, I promise,"

I reread the letter before walked to the bedroom. I went to my side of the bed and pulled out a box of cigarettes that I kept hidden. I lit one and brought it to my mouth, I took a long drag.

"I'm sorry, Louis, for everything,"

I pressed the cigarette against my forearm. I held it in there for a few seconds before running to the bathroom. I put my arm under the faucet and ran cold water over it.

"But this is one thing I can't stop doing,"