Begin Again (Benedict Cumberbatch Romance)

Chapter 5

Scareltt's POV

I'm so happy for Juliet. She really deserves this. She has worked so hard to get to where she is and I'm so proud of her. I could never be more proud of her. I love her so much and man she's just so damn lucky! Whatever! She finally gets to live her dream and I don't want to go all jealous of her.

We were currently all driving to a restaurant to celebrate a victory and a new start at life. It was Juliet, Shawn, and me. I didn't want to ask Ben to come because I knew he was going to be working at his movie and I didn't want to disturb him while he's expressing his talent given to him by God. I truly believe that. That man is the best actor I had ever seen. His style is just so amazing! And his cheekbones...

"Scar! Stop thinking about cheekbones and order your damn meal!" Jules ordered me, snapping her fingers in front of my face. I shook my head to clear the thoughts. How did she know that I was thinking about cheekbones? I must've had a confused look on my face because Juliet had finished with, "When you think about cheekbones, you usually have an out-of-it face and you touch your own cheekbones." Wow, was I really that way? I really needed help...

I laughed and rolled my eyes at her. I had finally decided what to order and spoke to the cashier what I wanted. I paid for my meal and we sat at a table. I smiled again at Jules and so did Shawn. I was so proud. She did it. I think she's finally at her turning point of her story and is about to move onto her real life. I was truly happy for her.

"Alright guys, enough with the sappy eyes and lets talk. I know you guys are proud, but can we talk about other things for a minute? I know I'm going to have to be thinking all about softball later so I want to think of different things now!" Jules started scolding us. I widened my eyes and help my hands up in defeat. That earned a laugh from Jules and I put down my hands.

"So how's life?" I asked, putting my elbow on the table and resting my head in my hand, staring at Juliet.

"Great, duh. Yours?" She put on a devious smile. I know where she was going with this. She's so into my love life. She does care for me though so I'll give her that.

"Amazing. Ben's great so far. You know apart from being busy all the time but we have another date! It's going to be this Friday and he's going to text me the details," I say. I see Juliet's face and she looks truly interested. She has her elbows on the table, her hands in slight fists while leaning her head onto her hands and having a face of true fascination on. I love my best friend. She loves it when I talk about this kind of stuff. She knows how it affects me and truly believes that Ben is the guy for me. I hope...

"That's really great. I'm so happy for you! He sounds like an awesome guy. Well besides the fact that he's a movie star, but you know, his real self!" she rambled. Oh she was funny when she rambled like that. She has a confused expression and she looks down and uses hand motions for her words. It was hilarious.

"Yeah, I got you. I really do hope he is the one. He's amazing." I couldn't help but look off into the distance with a dreamy look on my face.

This has got to be awkward for Shawn. He currently had his arm around Jules' waist and was just staring intently at me. Oh I know what he was up to... That little sneaky bastard. Oh no I don't mean cheating, I mean something else. It's not bad in fact it's like the best thing ever. But I don't want it to happen yet. I don't want to give up my protection from everything bad. I know that is selfish of me but I want to make sure I have another person to take care of me besides Juliet before she leaves so if something happens to me and she's not there I'll have someone.

I'm not sure yet but I'm kinda hoping it'.s Ben. I know he might not be the one but I have to try, right? Seriously why would he like a normal woman like me when he could have any woman he wanted? Why the hell me? These thoughts are just invading my head and won't get out. I'm having some major doubt right now.