It's been four weeks since I have spoken to Devin. I still see him in school, the tension remained, it was there lingering whenever we stumbled into each other, we would exchange glances now and then but that is about it. He is still the same, he still fucks Emily and I know that because I always see them kissing. And he comes late most of the times with bruises and blood stains on his shirt or pants. Typical Devin. Things haven't changed, my heart still pounds at the sound of his name and in the middle of most nights when I can't sleep, I replay him. Every place that he has kissed stings with the remaining burn of his mouth. My parents warned me about the drugs on the streets but not about the ones with big blue eyes and a heartbeat
Right now I was getting ready to go a little gathering at the beach that Emma is dragging me to. I wore a pair of high waisted white shorts along with a yellow crop top and a white cardigan and sandals. I curled my hair just because I was hoping Devin would show up and see me. I want his throat to get tight and his heart to skip a beat, I want him to miss me.
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We arrived at the beach, the air was chilly and the sky was dark, my eyes rolled around and caught sight of a captivating full moon. Being in the beach late at night is seriously the most relaxing place to be. I looked around some more, I can see the horizon with moonlight reflection in the water. That was definitely my favorite part.
Emma held onto masons hand and I followed behind them until we reached the small gathering of people. I stayed next to Emma the whole time, I felt like a total cock blocker but then again not really because she kept making out with Mason anyways.
Music played at a medium volume from the speaker, girls swayed to the beat of the music and guys drank heavily as the fire blazed in front of us, providing some heat and a source of light. I sat crossed legs on a towel facing the beach, I looked over at Devin who was seated away from the group, closer to the shimmering calm salty water with Emily beside him. She began to caress his thigh with one hand as the other hand wrapped around a glass of tequila. She whispered something into his ear which had made him burst out in laughter causing my stomach to clench and weakened. I wished I was the reason for his laughter. Instead of his throat getting tight and his heart skipping a beat because he missed me, it was happening to me, I was the one missing him. I wish I was kissing him instead of missing him.
Devin and Emily soon got up and made their way towards our group
"okay you guys, let's play spin the bottle" emily said with a grin upon her face and a empty vodka bottle tightly wrapped around her fingers
Emma squealed and grabbed my wrist dragging me along to the group that already had created a circle. Emma sat on my left and Devin on my right, while Emily sat across from us with Mason along with some other people that filled the gaps. The light from the fire from beside us glowed on all of our faces while the music played in the background putting everyone in a good mood to play, well except for me and Devin. I didn't want to play because games like this make me nervous, it's a chance for people to make a fool out of me. And I could tell Devin wasn't interested in playing because he was just there gulping down his beer with a blank, bored expression upon his face.
"Alright, I'll spin first" Emily said excitedly as she spun the empty bottle of vodka in rotation and we all sat eagerly watching it spin, the bottle than began to slow down and then made a complete stop
It landed on Emily and I
"Truth or dare Emily?" I asked politely
