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{Chapter 3}

I can't stop my tears from flowing but I tried to smile just to show him I'm fine. I can't let him see that I'm crying, but I just failed to do that. He just saw me trying to walk away with a bunch of tears falling from my eyes.

"Why are you crying?" He asked. "Oh, that's nothing. Something was just in my eyes earlier, so I cried it out" I reasoned.

"oh, so can you be my last dance?" He asked again. I hesitated. "No, I needed to go, besides, I'm tired." I excused. He let go of my hand as he bowed his head. He looked up to me again and smiled.

"Okay, bye Amy. Have a good rest."

My heart sank hearing those words. He decided me to be his last dance but his my first dance but and I just bailed. He didn't even stop me from going home. I walked home. My mood is not for this day. I cried all the way home, my handkerchief that I was using is his. As I remember that, my heart pained again. Tears flowed harder again. Maybe this was nothing. Maybe this was just something I needed to control. I tried to cheer up myself. For the good news, I succeeded.

[2 months later...]

It's been two months of our friendship. After the J's prom, I really never talked to may again. It hurts me to see her too. On the other hand, I continued to be Jonathan's friend. We always hang out together. Recess, Lunch, even on Sundays and Saturdays. I always go to their house just to be with him. I don't know exactly what's happening to me.

I breathed heavily and encouraged myself to talk to may.

"Hey" u said as I poked her in her shoulder. She was shocked to see I'm trying to talk to her again. Please, this always happens. "W-What?" She asked.

"I needed to ask something" I said. She just nodded and looked at the teacher.

"What's happening to a person that he/she doesn't want to go home because of someone.Like she always want to be with him. Like someone is angry if he sees her with someone else." I stated. She looked at me and gave me a puzzled look.

"Heart beats faster and feels pain to see him with someone else, always want to see him...What's happening to that person?" I added.

"I really didn't get what your trying to say, but based on what I've heard...It sounds like LOVE" I stopped. "You mean like, the person's inlove?" I asked just to make sure.

"Yes" I was caught off guard and fell on the floor. I collapsed based on my experience that time.

***

I opened my eyes slowly and looked around...I'm in the...clinic? I looked around again but my eyes were still blurred. My sight stopped at the statue infront of me, technically I was facing it, It was on my right side. When everything was clear, my eyes widened as I saw...Jonathan! "H-Hey! What are you doing here?!" I shouted. He didn't answer, instead he just looked at me with sadness in his eyes.

"What happened?" He finally said. Sadness, worries and frightened emotions filled his eyes. I don't know why but it broke me to see him like this. My heart shattered because of his expression. It feels like nothing was right, and somethings gonna happen that I'm really not gonna like.

"N-Nothing" I replied. I tried myself to prevent the sadness and pain to come out, but I guess I failed.

***

We were walking on the streets. We're on our way home. It's always the same way. Laughs, smiles, jokes and happiness filled us. Despite of those good things, I can really see in his eyes that he was pretending to be fine. His eyes told me that he wasn't happy inside.

My heart was in pain. I couldn't help but ask him. "What's wrong?" I asked, worried.

"Haha, what do you mean what's wrong? everything is fine! I'm fine!" He encouraged himself. I saw him hesitated in the end. "You know your not a good actor don't you?" He bailed to answered but showed me a satisfying smile. But it wasn't happy, it was the saddest smile I saw from him.

"I'm sorry to do this, I'm sorry if I kept this to you. But I want to thank you for your support and kindness you gave to me. Let's part ways Amy." I was shocked. I felt my heart broken into many pieces. I tried not to cry but failed. As one by one tears that fall, I felt like my world was done. "What? Why, I don't get what your trying to say, why, wha---" He cutted me off and shouted.

"DON'T YOU GET IT?! DIDN'T YOU HEAR WHAT I JUST SAID?! LET'S PART WAYS! I'M TIRED OF YOU! I HATE YOU! I GUESS NOW I KNOW WHY THEY HATE YOU!" After those words...he ran away. Leaving me with full of tears. What did I do wrong? What went wrong?

My heart sank, shattered, broke, disrupt, destroyed anything that says "it hurts so much". He devoured my feeling and it hurts me.

I walked home. I walked home just like those days. Alone, sad. The only difference was...I'm crying, I'm in pain...and smiled like a lunatic even it hurts so much. Is this what they call love?

Love hurts! I went straight to my room. Jumped into bed and cried all night. I can't eat, I can't stop crying. What saddens me, is that......I never thought I could love him. I loved the person who can never love me back. The person who made me cry. Fun to have a one-sided love right? Hurts like hell!

*END OF CHAPTER 3*

#One of the worst kind of pain, is that your smiling, just to stop your tears from falling.