Life Is Just A Game We Play And No One Wins .

Chapter 33

Weak that's how I felt . I couldn't move from my spot on the bed .
"Jess are you there " a brittle voice blared through the phone . I wanted to move but I couldn't . Julian is not dead ! He is alive and smiling . He is not dead I repeated it in my head until I believed it . Putting on a smile on my face I pick up the phone "Kyle he is not dead stop playing with me "

Standing to my feet I quickly changed into some shorts and a converse top .

A sigh came through the phone but it didn't phase me because I know he was joking julian is not dead . Kyle is just doing this as pay back for Tying him up yesterday.
"Jess my dad is dead , I'm at the hospital! " he yelled I heard stuff falling and I knew he was throwing things , But Why ? His father is alive .

"I'm coming down there just to prove too you that he is alive " hanging up the phone I flew down the steps flinging the door open I unlocked my car and hopped in .

Here I was standing Infront on door 330 the door that held my sanity . With shaking hands I pushed it open screaming at the sight in front me . Julian really was dead . All the machines that were suppose to be hook up on him were gone .
"NO NO NOOO " I cried running over to his lifeless body " Julian wake up please , I need you . I didn't even get to say goodbye . Please dear god send him back " begging I leaned over his body trying lift his eyelids but they did budge .
"JULIANN" I fell to the floor full out bawling I couldn't I couldn't . Kyle tried to comfort  me but I shoved him away I don't want anyone touch me . This man was a father to me he helped me find myself now he's gone why . "OMG OMG I wanna go too . I'm coming with you " sprinting for the door , a hand yanked me back crashing into Kyle's chest I sobbed I didn't fight anymore I was to weak and I just couldn't go anymore .

"Let's go get you cleaned up " he told me guiding me out the room blocking my view from Julian .
I entered the Empty toilet followed shortly by Kyle who didn't care that he wasn't allowed in here .

"Kyle I'm so sorry . You lost your father and here I am crying like he was mines when I'm suppose to be strong for you. " I cried looking at my pathetic reflection looking back at me .

"Hey hey " he cooed running his hands through my hair . " it's ok Jess I went through this already and before he left he spoke to me . I'll be ok not now but soon " he broke on the last words .

I lifted his chin up so he was watching me in my eyes . "Let's go back before they move him " i said before splashing some water on my face .

He stood frozen to his spot taking his hands In mine I squeezed it showing him I was here by his side . Smiling down at me but it didn't reach his ears we walked out the bathroom together and back into the room.

Kyle pulled a chair closer to his father and began to speak "Dad so I guess this is it huh ?" He laughed bitterly " I always thought when you said it was us against the world that you wouldn't leave me but I thought wrong didn't I " he Screamed, tears leaving his eyes he put his head into his arms I cried stifling back the screams . " dad how I'm I suppose to live without you tell me . I lost mom and now you . Why am I even alive I have no one no one . "

The last part stung a little because he had me ,but I let it slide because he's grieving . After he was finished yelling and venting out his feelings on his dad I walked over to him. Pulling me onto his lap he snuggled into my chest . Staring at Julian tears left my eyes but I didn't break down I kept strong for him .

The nurses came in a hour later and told us they have to remove his body from the room . Kyle putted up a fight but I calmed him down and explained to him that it has to be done . Calling mom I told her about Julian's death making her forget that I ran out the house at 4 in the morning without her knowing .