There's Always Trouble In Paradise

Wishful

Autumn soon turned into winter, as all the leaves fell from the trees, and they were now replaced with a thin layer of snow. The wind grew sharper with chill, and the days started to become short. Everything living was in its sweet winter slumber, awaiting spring to arrive. Well, everything but me. Why couldn't I sleep during the winter like everything else? I hated the cold and it certainly did not help that the school had a poor heating system also.

"It's so cold." I groaned out.

"Oh stop complaining dork."

Kevin reached under the table and held my hand. We were sitting far back in the school library, right next to one of the walls. One may think it was to be away from sound during my normal tutor sessions with Kevin. But it truly was for us to be able to hold hands and be touching each other where no one would really notice. Okay, I guess that wasn't the only true reason; Kevin did need tutoring also to keep his grades up for sports. Kevin intertwined his fingers with mine and I smiled; I loved the way our hands locked perfectly together. His hands were strong and warm, the skin on his palms felt rough; but he held my hand ever so gently. They were loving, safe hands. Hands I will always recognize and remember.

"At least one hand is warm now."

"Shut up dork. You know I would do more if I could. Now help me with my math."

I chuckled to myself some and obediently did as I was told, going over a math problem step by step with Kevin. I enjoyed doing this with him, even though he may not so much. This is where I was on top though, where I was the one in control for once. Kevin is so good and strong at everything else, this was my enjoyment time with being stronger. Plus, it did not hurt when he would let his hand travel under the table during this time; such a naughty boy. Oh, but I what I would do for a romance night with my lover pleasuring me in my favorite place. One can fantasize.

"I still don't understand it babe."

"What part are you having trouble understanding?"

"All of it."

I let out a sigh. "Sometimes one would think that you are hopeless."

Kevin smirked at me and leaned in as if to kiss me. "As long as you don't think I'm hopeless."

My face turned red with blush as I felt his hot, minty breath dance over me. His lips were a soft pink and smooth, just begging to be kissed. I bit my inner lip gently as I studied my lovers face; he was so handsome with his red hair and beautiful green eyes that danced in the light. How did I become so lucky to get him? Without thinking, I leaned in to kiss him, our lips barely brushed against together as he pulled back. Disappointment fell over me, even though I understood it was for the best, I still didn't like it. Oh how much I was jealous of other couples to be able to show their affection freely without judgement.

I let out a disappointing sigh and mumbles curses to myself. Kevin was now use to this and instead of worrying like he use to, he just gave an understanding nod and went back to figuring out his math problems. Looking around the library, there was students and teachers decorating with snowflakes and Christmas theme decorations ups. Nazz was part of that group, hanging up posters of the upcoming senior winter formal coming up. Great, another thing I can't go to with Kevin. Ever since the football game I've noticed that there's been more and more situations coming up that I couldn't spend with Kevin. I leaned back in my chair with my arms crossed, pouting as much as I could possibly pout.

"Edd, knock it off."

"Why? I can not show sadden emotions now?"

Kevin let out a long sigh. "I'm not saying that. We'll talk about it later. Here and now isn't the place to do this."

"It's never the place if it isn't at home in the bedroom."

Kevin hissed. "Edd."

Kevin and I glared at each other; you could feel the tension in the air. But that tension was broken when a sweet voice spoke up.

"Um, am I like interrupting something?"

It was Nazz.

I rolled my eyes and sat back in my chair. "Not at all Ms. Nazz, Kevin is just getting upset at his homework."

She let out a giggle. "Oh okay, good! So Kevin, about the winter formal!"

Here we go, she was going to ask and Kevin  was going to go with her and I was going to go with Ed and Eddy. Same story, just a different day.

Kevin raised an eyebrow and looked up at her. "Yeah? I'm going with someone already."

My heart felt as if it stopped in my chest and I watched Nazz's smile wash off her face.

"Oh, you are? That's cool dude. Who you gonna go with?"

Kevin shrugged and leaned back in his chair. "Someone I've been dating for awhile."

"You never told me you had a girlfriend."

"Well, there's a lot I haven't been telling people."

My heart now felt like it was pounding in my chest. What did Kevin think he was doing? H-he's mad! My face turned red and my breathing became heavy; panic, panic was all I could do.

"Can't wait to meet her. I'll let you get back to your homework." Nazz gave a soft smile the left to go back with the group of students doing the decorating.

I turned to Kevin, face still beat red and heart still pounding. "W-what was that?"

Kevin took my hand and held it on top of the table instead of under. He was holding my hand out in public!

"K-Kevin."

He shrugged and went back to doing to his homework. "I'm tired of making you upset. Now help me with this problem babe."