Heartless Criminal (Royce)

Chapter 30

j.p // p.o.v Saturday July 2nd

I sat on the couch shaking. I was not only depressed but sad, manipulated, confused,and hurt. "I was only gone for a week and Chres is already back with Aurry ? So i mean nothing to him at all ?!" I said in my head as i looked at all the photo's of him and Aurry sleeping together, walking together, and even cuddling. I felt my anger rising but the millisecond. So many questions ran through my head. I was standing in Mike's room starring at the pictures scattered all over the bed. I don't know why but.... they let me go. Mike dropped me off at the house we moved in, across from Chresanto's house. I don't understand. I suddenly started to feel something weird. A weird craving. I sat down on the bed and took a deep breath.

"Maybe i should stop looking at the pictures im feeling nauseous" i said to myself. Just as i gathered all the pictures together the house phone rang.

"Who could that be." I said in my head. I grabbed the house phone and answered it.

"H-hello ?"

"Hijo !!! Oh my gosh are you ok ?!" I sighed in relief knowing it was my mom

"Im ok mami just went away for a couple of days."

"Gosh don't scare me like that !"

"Im sorry. Im back now and im ok."

"That's great honey. I called because i wanted to see how you were doing, but you wouldnt answer for six days ! And yesterday i called your phone and your close friend answered !"

"Mom slow down... What close friend ?"

"I don't know. He said you were his close friend that's all."

"Oh." I said knowing for sure it was Chresanto. Just thinking of Chresanto made me mad because everytime i saw him, i saw Aurry too and hiw she's always going to be in our way. ALWAYS !

"Honey are you ok ?" My mom said. I grabbed the pictures and my lighter out if my drawer.

"Im doing just fine mom."

"Are you sure ? cause you seem off. Are you taking your meds ?"

"How many times do i have to say i don't fucking need them mom !! I got this under control !!" I said yelling through the phone breathing heavy.

"Oh my, you're getting worse." I could hear her voice cracking from the other end of the phone. I sighed.

"Mom im fine. Don't worry about me. You raised a strong son. I don't need the meds ok. Im fine."  I said while playing with the lighter.

"Ok hijo... Ok. I just wanted to know if you were alright."

"Im fine. I love you, and i'll call you later ok ?"

"Ok. I love you too. Be careful." She said before hanging up. I put the lighter down threw the pictures at the wall. What was wrong with me ? Id never lashed out like that before. What's happening to me ? I got up and went into the bathroom staring in the mirror. I-i didn't look the same.

"J-jacob what happened to you." I said touching the mirror.

"Here." Someone said. I jumped and turned around facing Benzo.